Dark, Blank ,and Desolate

 She stares off. to embrace nature or continue to dread her life in her mind

This is how I've been feeling really. Right now I'm in another transition point in my life which is always really hard on me since it's gonna be a really radical change. she looks  so beautiful even as blank as she looks. It's kinda hard to see if she is content or internally struggling. it's alot up to the viewer. also if you have rockin tits you might really relate alot. 

Ayesha Erotica

 My Fav Coke Whore

I love Eyesha Fr. I drew this at work on my break. she's legit so freaking pretty. she got my slutty energy that I embody so much. It actually reminds me that i bought some hankies for me hehe~ a light blue one and a dark hunter green for my right pocket. you can guess or research what that means....

but other than that I gave her a cool black metal logo i know its not anything close to her music style or fashion but. shes cunty enough to look good like that. but mostly i just like doing logos like that. and there is like a half finished mother mary in the corner but the real mother is ayesha

The Anti Human Internet is Here

 I've been on the internet essentially all my life. it's been very very important to how I express myself and consume art. but i can't help but notice how commercial and boring the internet has become. now I'm not the first person to say this but i think AI has made this issue two fold. 

Ai has pointed out all my issues with the current internet culture. and it only plans to make them worse as time goes on.

Now First off is these Skynet level companies that have control of essentially everything. Meta and Google have control of some of the most high traffic sites on the internet and own some very important services that hold the entire internet up. and with that power Meta has used all of it to Scrape and Train AI off of it's users. something people have community and friends attached to Years and years of art hosted on the site reduced to only training data for meta. it is beyond pathetic the lengths these sites are going to to completely break consumer trust. and they have the power to completely regress in so many aspects and hold majority share in their category. Regress in a way I've seen on all social media. either it be Instgram making finding underground artist wayyy harder or youtube taking away the dislike button and annotations and adblock blockers It just seems they are not innovating at all in anyother way than the one thing that really counts, 

One thing that does get stronger is the algorithm. I really do believe this aspect of all social media sites has completely ruined all aspects of internet culture. where discoverability was one of the greatest things about early Youtube and instagram and even vine to a degree. it has all been thrown out to hold user attention and waste so much time and make it so you interact with this content. Sewing division, spreading hate, bigotry, all horrid things that should be left to rot on a 4chan board is left to thrive on the internet. cause that's all the algorithm knows. a constant need for consistent content creation. has completely cooked quality of content posted. I think we all are aware of brain rot but I really does feel rotting to see what content is popular these days. stream clips, lists, charts, lets plays, ANOTHER FUCKING MOIST CRITICAL VIDEO. I'm so sick of it. don't we all love the slop. the same slop that has the audacity to try and sell me stuff. everything is being sold to you all the time. so much content is just about buying things. I think that one stat about how much ads we view need to be updated cause i think tik tok has increased it by a couple thousand

. my hate for consumer trends on social media cannot be measured. thats all ill leave it at.  

all of the most vile valueless things I've seen on the internet have been within the last 5 years. Moderation and morals on the internet are essentially gone. and this still ties back to the algorithm. don't you wanna debate with this chud that is using talking points from 2015? I know you love to watch toxic feminism, please watch this entire podcast clip. ragebait has existed forever. ever since the ps triple dropped we been trolling. but to compare Chad Warden to Modern Rage bait is not even close. these clips are made for reactions but secondly to confirm biases. either it be a certain gender acting a certain way, something defamatory about trans people. race issues, and systemic issues. it sucks so much to see the comments of these videos of people not notice they are being played so hard and treat these videos as if they are real or if a person really means it.   

It's all useless. cause its the fucking internet. it would seem the only people to be doxxed back in the day were all in bad corners of the internet. but now some asshole internet mean girls can drop your employer, address. and socials for viewpoints you hold or a bad video of you. people are taking the internet to damn seriously. this is all stuff that is one click away from not needing to see anymore. if you really have a problem. leave. and I do. I've had so many problems with the internet. so i think it would be the best thing for me to leave. I know the internet has been so valueable to me as a child it really changed my life for the best. I just cannot look at it in the face and say this is the same internet that made me such a creative person. this is not the same internet that made me so sociable and happy. this is the anti human internet. and I'm done with it.         

    

New Altoid Tin!!!

 It's for me cigs~ hehe

I'm a huge slut for Altoids and everytime i finish a tin I'm left with the tin. which is nice but i wish there was a less wasteful way to buy Altoids. but yknow they fit cigs so i cant complain. so i had just sanded off the clear coat and painted on top of it. and drew with fountain pen.

one of my main inspo for the look was the blythe dolls since they have such a charming mix of creepy and cute I really like them. and I'm overall really taking more inspo from dolls in general. but she did not really end up looking much like a blythe doll but kinda ended up in the creepy doll park i wanted her to be in. 

 The Black metal filligree was really nice to draw and came out really well. i think my main goal is to make it look really branchy. I know some other black metal bands look more flesh like and more organic in a way. I just take alot of notes from actual filligree which incorporates alot of natural things like leafs and fruit. so just making it based of dead branches. I know it looks good cause it almost looks like there's text somewhere in it. but no there is no text

God Is Good

 on the 3rd day god gave us milfs in night dresses.

I Love this so much srsly. What if I told you femdom has been haunting me like the ghost of Christmas past. such a beautiful rotund build on her. nice chubby stomach and perfect tits, she has such a nice almost handsome look on her. And like i said I'm a real slut for handsome women. so you can see why I love mature women so much

The Dark Vail Night dress just perfectly frames her figure in the negative space. and i could say the shadow work perfectly shows the light source and draws out her curves and folds. the stark lightness against her dark curly hair is just so fufin good. I'm a huge fan of the line work this is actually my newest drawing from my fountain pen. yeah I ended up being a huge fan of fountain pens. 

 

Make her a fat beautiful woman

 Not saying super sonico is not fat enough.but if you could see what you are missing out on.....

It's always an ick for me when artists just can only draw fat right on certain parts of the body. like the boobs and thighs but just don't know how to draw fat arms or double chins. i kinda have that ick with super sonico. she just does not seem very natural to me. her boobs are way to big to be as perky as they are in official art and figures theres like no sag at all.  and i made her fatter in the tummy and arms.

Vintage Girl

her eyes set heavy with an awkward build.

She radiates beauty and the smell of old books. she is ditsy in the same way a doe faces on coming cars, pretty pink bows really draw out her beady sickly eyes. she's perfect. I drew this with a new fountain pen. and I really like how it turned out. Had to draw in a larger format than normal but I really like doing that honestly  

 

50/30/20 The Financial Blog

2/14/25

New Blog series about becoming more financially stable

 Hello everynyan as someone thats pretty young entering the workforce and entering adulthood. Its really fucking tough out here. as me being lower class working in service work there is no way im making it to a more stable class level. so I reckon we could start with the audit

Currently I am Working 40 hours a week. at 12 dollars an hour. We are very short staffed which leads to me having alot of overtime.

I am very lucky to have low bills. Considering what car payments look like right now my mom is thankfully helping me with car payments so Currently its only 480 Every Month and 200 To my sister for rent. and 100 - 75  for Gas and about 100-400 quarterly for car Upkeep. But we are only worried about monthly for now. groceries are currently 80-100 and those are the Major Needs.

This makes my monthly needs 960  and Half of my monthly income is 960 with no overtime. but overtime can often add an extra 100 to my monthly income which is actually surprising.

I am taking steps to put more into my savings. Which Right now is 1,100 with 4% interest compounded monthly and 20 percent from that would be 384  with monthly contributions and Interest. My Savings could be up 3,400 in 6 months and 5,800 in a year. 

This leaves me with 576  for wants or 288 bi weekly. which for useless stuff is fine for me honestly but I would be scared to find im spending more than that. 

But my main goal right now is moving out. which would cost me 1,430 which is 88% of my income at the moment. what i would need to be making is 18 an hour. which means I'm not gonna be able to move out until I get my trade. but that would also mean adding on my possible student loan payments. but a trade job would pay alot more that just 18 so i would rekon it could cover it if i really need it. but also i could also stay home too.

so those are my goals at the moment. Just gonna have to swallow my pride and admit I'm gonna have to put months and months of work and financial planning to do something the past generation did fresh out of high school. it fucking sucks but i just have to nut up and fucking do this.   

 

More Mothra!!!

 She's soooo cute!!!

Mothra is a bug taxidermist and collector. she lives in the everfree forest in a cabin. she only goes out to night to not run into any creatures or bother anyone. though she does have frequent interactions with apple jack due to her love for apples.  though she does have a garden she does not have an orchard.

her original design had wings but it would not make much sense in the forest plus Mothras a pretty big girl. She is as talkative as pinkie pie but not as sociable obviously. she's very very curious.    

Composition Project Pages 50 - 60

 

Sounds more like "yes ma'am"

Girls just want a cutie in pajamas.

I've been acting too straight recently and its all come to this. ACK i know a cis couple. it's hard for me to look at it too but here me out.

sub boyfriend. I know it would look like "Femdom" but nah. if it would look normal if the roles were switched than its just normal. this does not seem extreme to me at all. I really see it as super cute. and super hawtt tooo. just her towering over him, arms pinned, and just being smothered. She's so hawt for that.      

 

Bug After Dark (Video)

 Episode 1 : man whore

as a nsfw artist it is really hard to have a platform to post on. so hopefully with this I can start making NSFW videos for my works that could not be properly censored or risk copyright. pretty much everything youtube hates