Millipede

 I Wuv Body Horror 

Given I'm somebody that has a strange relationship with my body, Body horror calls to me in many ways. In the way I intend to change myself, like in a "The Substance" type way.

And also how much my body has been Viewed in a lewd way in the past, the urge to make myself disgusting out of spite. I think alot of girls can relate to that given women's affinity to body horror in which it means something deeper than just, Scary bugs n stuff...

I think it has alot to do with my asexual feelings right now, while of course there is a passion in my heart. At the time it just seems like something so far fetched that, I don't crave intimacy with another person.

It just feels like something, fantasy. like a movie or something out of a Junji Ito comic, I know it makes me sound like a loser.

 

This really does kinda look like a horror movie cover which I had kinda just noticed, I would hand alot to it would be the metal type typography. and as it goes, It's of course really hard to read. It's just supposed to be my artist alias, but given the ability to read, it takes some dissecting. 

I did all the spikes and kerning really right, so overall really awesome sauce. 

 

 

Bug Blog 07-06-26

 The Boy Rot Has Continued.

I had another rejection and a particularly brutal rejection that just made me recluse further than I ever have before, thankfully the more merciful one had come first before the other.

Just the simple one I'm used to at this point, that she's just processing things. But the other felt of a humiliation ritual, that I drove out to where we promised to meet up only to learn she had blocked me. this is the one I still think of the most. that my value is so low I can simply be tossed aside like that, perhaps worse than rejection.

So now I am back in my shell, deep in my shell. I don't want to date anyone or anything. especially something that values me so lowly, It makes me feel so weak to even think about it.

 Personal Aesthetics 

This is purely narcissism, I don't intend to attract nor impress foids. that yeah it may attract more girls, It's literally only for my body, why the fuck should I not revile in that. I'm doing it for my fav most sweetest boy, ME! I WANT TO BE A BIG HIMBO PRETTY BOY. 

Thankfully it is working, I'm at my lowest hovering around 160 and now after reducing my sodium intake it's reduced my water weight and retention. I'm thinking of just going for the bulk considering I do have the method in which I can actually lose weight. but perhaps I should only wait until winter.

Right now the emphasis is on sodium reduction and sweating in order to slim down, and of course high protein and low calories for fat reasons.

 "The Artists' Obvious Kink" 

Femdom is something that's been in my mind all month. Especially in the later weeks of the month, It was a rather unhealthy obsession. One that I still indulge in, I love it so much.the thing making me so consistent in my weight training has been the masochistic factor of it. that if my trainer were wearing heels I'd Finish do every set until failure.

naturally given everything, my self worth is questionable. I'm still proud of what I've created and my health and aesthetics have Improved alot this month. so yes I'm a loser bottom bitch girl slut.... but I'm also super happy with my art output and personal health and aesthetics :3   

My Life a Rage Comic.

 She The Awesome Sauce On The Epic Burger. 

I love this derpy little nerd look she has, gaw she is so adorable. that shy dimply smirk. in an pose with such a grace that can only be compared to an awkward giraffe, her extremities bowed and arching. 

 

a puffy mound patched in full and dark hair, the same hair that sprinkles her body. perhaps there be a reason as to why she is dressing down, that is only the peachy face of a very koi girl.       

maybe shy or insecure but she has no reason to, such a pretty slender body. so womanly in her existence that even unintentionally, she draws me in no matter what. no need to pose or present her assets, It turns me on so much :3