I Want Milk~

 Moo Moo 

I love drawing milfs man. especially stacked shy milfs. I love it so damn much. there are so many pretty mature women that just don't act the way they look.

 

These immaculate women underplay their looks so much and it breaks my heart, I love it all. the smile lines and the crows feet all of it X3. I do not care for perky perfect girls I just want a sweet older woman. but like in the same way mid girls want K pop boys. just something I'll dream of and know it's a wish that will stay a wish. 

 

I hate to admit it but alot of it has to do with my mommy issues. I don't mean to dance around the idea of having an "older mature caring woman" and not take note of that. It's very strange and it's an attraction I mainly want to keep in fantasy since I would imagine it would not be a normal or healthy relationship to have. 

 

I LOVE this Lingerie It's cute cow themed cause of her udders of course. I don't mind hangers I mean gravity and boobs are a constant of the universe so naturally boobs droop. I love it :3 as another sign of maturity it's great but then again I love boobs of all shapes and sizes I see all as a beautiful form of the female body. 

 

for the one in a million chance of a cougar reading this. Plz Contact me :3333     w 

Israel Pilled Goon Fuel

 NOT MR.PIBB 

They changes the damn pibb from pibb xtra to normal Mr.pibb :((. The old bottle was so fucking cool but then they just wanted it to look old school but like now it just looks kinda awkward for how cool this drink in

 

The old harsh red and black label just made it quite the extreme looking drink. and it taste incredible. and the biggest shame is that it just taste the same. It did not change at all really

 

and here's a little evil chud flexing. just some more muscle practice :333 and an interesting point from the looksmaxxer clavicular saying that He does not have a problem with trans men. He just sees them as "another person to mogg"

 HEHE LESBEANS...  

To see this one you gotta turn your head sideways. so do that... good boy :3. but it's just two lesbeans. one bullying the other. It's silly cause holding nerd stuff above the nerd makes the nerd tits jiggle. fun fact

 

Moar musclessss hehehehe~~~~ Considering I'm lifting now. I really like to see muscle boys cause that's like my body goals now. not just something to gawk at. and it's really fun to study muscles. and I'm just kinda addicted to the male form... cuz like I wanna look like that now and be a boy slut. so I have these Icons to look up to :33

 I'm a Literal Legend 

Charlie smiling friend :333. recently smiling friends ended and it was rather disappointing but in a world where there are tons and tons of properties that burn out and still get stretched for one or two more seasons it's kinda weird to see a show comfortably end by the means of the writers.

 

Charlie is a big boyyyy so I love it :333 wit his shirt up n all getting me feral. and then the queen whore ayeshaaa. I love her so much. It was interesting to first hear her from my first girlfriend. she had told me about her and how much she loves her but I just did not get it. in retrospect she really came around to being one of my Icons in life.

 I wuv goregrind 

It's mr postal! I have not played the game in a long time actually... I'm really needing to finish or replay the game. it really it one of my fav games from what I've played of it. I know I had got passed the rednecks and gotten the ballsack toy deal.

 

The other thing is the same old "very graphic band tee" guy in public. I've listened to alot of goregrind and it certainly is an art and somewhat respectable but the use of gore is kinda weird. especially something like crime scene photos or suicide photos makes it seem scummier. but the worst offense is the groups that have tees. and the people that wear them... an interesting group of edge lords.

 Roller Derby girlzzzz 

Not gonna lie I really forgot about roller derby. weird how somewhat popular it was in the mainstream but something about it just did not let it continue into the late 2010s. but I really like it being a rough yet female dominant sport it was seen as pretty empowering for women.

 

and cmon who don't love cute girls on wheels. I would say there's a soft crossover of pin up and 50s fashion so it's really cool to see the outfits.  and a bunnyyyy. cuz bunnies are so meeee!!! a bunny is like my dream pet. specifically the breed of my sona. the holland lop. they have the floopy ears and are all fluffy and cute. the most bunny looking bunny in my opinion. well cartoon bunny at least.

 MOAR BOYSSS!!!! 

hehehehe~~~ moar boyss... Totally for studying reasons... the one with his shirt open and kissy marks all over. yup just a study... a very specific study. like er lipstick studies... LONG HAIR AND MUSCLES GUHHHHHH zomg I want it so badddduhhh. it looks so fufin badass and hawt.

 

er like I said before I really want muscles now :33 er just give it a year. with my couple of months I have reached the ideal... average body... but! give it a year I swear I'm gonna be soooo hawttt :3333 I'm still debating on bulk or cut but My eating disorder is getting a little too strong. so either or is gonna be really hard. 

 What if I told you.. more boys 

It ain't overrrrr hehehe.I'm tapping into my inner tom finland and drawing HUNKS!! :3333. I'm doing the same thing I normally do with my other pin ups which is adding assets to a ref image.

 

so this was just a normal pic till I added the cute crop top. I REALLY want to wear a crop top. It's such a bold boy whore move I just love it so much. Idk why I'm playing like I did not draw a ton of boys which... I did draw a ton of boys...

 

 Girl time again :333 and puppy stuffsss 

CHUBBY GIRL CHUBBY GIRL :3333 I love Big girlss sooo muchhhhcijfijwrg so yeh I just drew one :3 I saw this really cute pic and I had to draw her. I'm so glad to have the ability to draw plus sized people cause that is like the biggest weakness of beginner artists.

 

*Ahem* especially NSFW artists... I'm not saying names but big tits and thighs does not mean plus size...BUT other than that here's some puppy stufffsss. My mental has not been the best so I just been regressing to puppy just cause...

I like that type of role playing cause it's just so nice to regress into a mindset where you are doing something you are good at and that your partner enjoys. receiving physical attention and verbal praise is just so nice :3 

 20 years living in a horse world 

I had heard of horse giirl but never actually listened until her feature on Joost's most recent album and it is a certified banger. and if you did not know horse giirl is a literal horse so her performances and public appearances are always interesting to see.

 

I very much recommend the Joost album and horse giirl overall. It's so interesting to see LGBTQ rep in electronic music and how seamless it feels compared to other mediums and genres. where queer rep had existed since HI-NRG and House music. it's great to see solid queer rep in modern genres like gabber and breakcore.

 White people be like 

It's always pretty interesting to see how identity is formed by our products and monster is very much the case of that where we can compartmentalize people by which flavor they drink.

 

like for me my fav flavor is original monster sugar free. the dark citrus flavor is so freaking good. ultra is my 2nd pick cause it's alot lighter and brighter flavor. so I drew the my two ideas of the average female zero ultra drinker and the average original monster drinker

 

Ultra Is huge in gym culture. and OG is huge in the punk scene so naturally one is a cardio bunny and the other is a busty goth cause IM FREE TO DO SO!!

 The bunny brain worsens 

stupid self portrait of mee. bunny moment... as I said before it's just a physical attention and verbal praise is what I love so fufin much. just the ability to only imagine me and my partner are the only thing that exist.

 

stress and thoughts? that's such a human thing, Me? I just want  to be a dumb obedient bunnuy :3 It's very weird and depraved I know. I know how to function normally outside of that. I still hope you see me as a normal person. 

 

mois citical nghhhh~~ he's so hawt. even doe he's a kinda boring fence sitter I wanna be his face sitter~

 Angine De Poitrine 

I recently discovered this AWESOME prog rock group called Angine De Poitrine. they are french Canadian or something... they are certainly weird. and their recent vol.1 album is a DAMN BANGER, both melodically and technically it really funks like a rock album but has weird time signatures and is microtonal

 

and the two members dress like yo gabba gabba characters in performances and its incredible to see honestly It's quite the gimmick but goddamn their shit ROCKS. for serious.

and sam hyde. yes I know he is quite the extreme and controversial person but to put it in the grand scheme of other online creators like gypsy crusader I don't even think you could compare them to sam. considering that sam has actually created interesting art as opposed to the racist that made being the joker the only joke they tell.

 BUNNY LEVELS HAVE REACHED MAX 

This is pretty embarrassing but again a sketchbook is supposed to be the very personal reflection of an artists mind.

 

and my mind was thinking about getting man handled by a taller fit woman... not that there is anything wrong with that. I just love physical attention. especially from large and dominant partners. something about the safety and strength is just addicting. strong firm hands, soft affirming words gawsh I love it so much...

 

It makes me fold in an instant... can you tell I have not seen anybody for like a year and a half? It's becoming very very obvious...

 Happy Fiday the 13th :33 

 It was halfway into friday that I had just noticed that it was friday the 13th so I just had to HAD TO draw jason as a big ol hunk.

 

cause I mean for someone as invincible as him he's gotta be built ford tough. that was the main idea honestly. did not think of much else other than his big old titties hehehe~ I've been working on my own and I fufin love ittt

 

I get to puff my chest all around and look like a huge himbo :33 and my shoulders too.

 Ellis my country daddy~  

I love L4D2 :3. especially Ellis, he's so Texan. or southern I reckon, I guess just cause I was texan meant I had to pick him when I was playing him.

 

and I drew him as big and uh big and strong and with muscle and uhhh eniernenj yeahhshdka hue

 

I just wanna say sorry I know this was a super long post but I just did alot and had not updated in a long long time. soooo yeah sorry again. I don't know if longer posts are preferred over shorter more frequent posts.
 

Bug Blog 03/11/2026

 AHHH OH MY CARP I FORGOT  

I had literally just noticed thinking about my blog.and did not do my monthly deal. Zerm... 11 days late.. better than not...

 Rip in peace my Instasham 

One of my post had gotten taken down and I just started to realize why do I put effort into platforms that would just erase my work cause I'm a NSFW artists so like... I just stopped and moved to bluesky. which is more welcoming to NSFW artists and still sticking to my blog. so yurp I Only use it to stay in touch with peoples but not to host my art.

 Dating still sucks. 

I mean I'm getting leads but nothing outside of that. just talking, well it's better than being ignored it's just weird how much it's happening. I just hope to find someone that will "tolerate" me since people just don't like my personality or something. Or I might just ditch my dating ideas and focus on me

which that's becoming more and more likely every day.

 

But hey let's not be a sad incel about it I've been meeting
more and more very nice a friendly peoples :3 Especially a girl I finally got to meet in person. she's like super awesome sauce and I was so happy to see her in person. and another person a friend knew and I have been talking to them too. my newfound confidence is making me way more social and I really love it.

 

 I found that assumed judgement was keeping me from doing alot of things and now that it has kinda left me It just feels so good to start convos with random people and talking to new people.

 

 I can't ignore my low point. 

I regressed and thought about my ex... with the whole not having any success with dating effected my self worth and got me back to missing my ex in some fucked way. It was indeed pathetic but I just can't be confident that it won't happen again 

 

Cause I had told myself it would not be a problem but it still did effect me. It's dumb I know and took a while to rebound. but I had since been back and I don't think I could ever consider that anymore. but then again... it's what I thought last time. and it's just hard to face this grief.

 

 I CUT MY HAIR AGAIN :3333 

I don't really have a pic of it right now... I'll update
this post when I get one. but Finally I reckon my hair was long enough to cut again since by then It was already down to the center of my back, and it was becoming intrusive again to where I almost wanted a pixie cut or something a little lower than my shoulders. so I did it, and cut a ton. now it's just what I wanted and I love it sooo mucchhhhh. it's all scuffed and layered so it seems pretty masculine.

 

I'm starting to wear eyeliner too and I'm goddamn obsessed with it. It's such a recent development that just like my hair I do not Have a good picture of it. It really draws my eyes out and makes me look like a slutty pornstar mess and I love it I love Ittttt!!!! :333 
 

 BODY!!!!! 

I'm still a little husky but I am at 165-170 right now. but I would hope my body fat percentage is changing since I have not changed weight this month but I certainly look very different right now.

 

Here I am being a slut in a tank top. I'm using god's might to hold back some of my tummy. and I have been growing in my arms which is so awesome sauce. especially in my forearms. but considering my arms were already like super super thin I can't really flex about getting average arms.

 

But it feels goddamn incredible to reach a somewhat athletic
body. I'm mainly just planning to train with my high volume low reps to just build more but I do not plan on the bulk. cause that is like really expensive kinda. and I do not like eating all that much right now. My appetite through the month can change so much and right now I really don't like eating but at other points I have really intense cravings.

 

I'm kinda on the cut with no muscle soo it's just making me really skinny. I love it but I don't know if I'll love being this slime for a really long time if I don't keep up with building muscle. but I'm just giving it more time to either gain lean mass or get more defined from loosing body fat. 

 

It is crazy how twinkish my body got once I started weight lifting. everyone thinks weight lifting is only something that builds but it's taken off so much weight for me. all that stupid cardio did not take off much of me. my body is far more expressive now and even more feminine dare I say. Like from the crop top image I have a slimmer figure now and I just look so awesome sauce.     b 

 

 Overall :P 

I'm settled back into my normal schedule and an even better schedule I would say considering how different I'm looking this month. and I love my new look so much It makes me so fufuin handsome I reckon. and it kinda scares older people so I get to have fun with that.

 

Sorry abt being really late but Just means y'all will be hearing from me again sooner :33 s