Ladies... start bulking NOW

 not even on the cut either... 

Now this is what girls expect what to happen when they lift over 50 on their shoulder press... 

 

I'm sorry but for how HARD female lifters and body builders work to build muscle mass it is so funny to me that girls think they will accidentally become a body builder from weight training.

 

This is what kept me from lifting when I wanted to be more fem. I thought I would become a huge scary looking dude when I would start lifting but like my body is far more fem than when I was chubbier.

 

I wanna reuse this background for one of my pics cause this looks SO badass! just such a perfect well built body with the cold hard looking background. I used the concrete texture to reinforce that look. also... The apple jack tattoo was just something I thought was cute. apple jack is a bit of a tomboy so I'd imagine the model has a soft spot for MLP.

 

It's just so swag. she is like SO FUCKING hot. I love to see definition on women. and healthy mass on women. I know I got my addiction to big girls it's any girl I love that is prolly 10-30 pounds over me.... cause she certainly getting 10 POUNDS from me. 

W Faps?

 more and more pages!! 

Bunny bunny bunny :3, My fursona again!!! I gave myself perky ears this time. which is more of a rabbit thing buttt It's hard to draw my floppy ears and hair down. and I wanted to draw myself all husky. which it's coming along but I'll let you know in my next body update blog.

 

he looks so much better like this with perky ears. I drew this on a notepad so I threw the whole page into my book. It's starting to get kinda uncomfortable to draw on this book since all the pages are warped and they shift alot. like shifting around under your hand is kinda hard so I've been using more and more scraps and drawing outside of the book rather than in

 Simp shit :) 

One of my fav drawings recently. this one foe the lesbians. Just the overwhelmed look with running eyeliner is so fuckin cute.

overstimmed to tears is just so pretty, messy hair and kissy marks It's so pretty to me.

 

the other thing is just a girl from tik tok. I don't use it anymore but tik tok was a really good source for finding weird and cool people. and I found a McBling tiktoker and she was so pretty to me so naturally with all my muses.. I drew her.

 

she has such a pretty round face and endearing eyes. her hair flows and curls to frame her upper bust. she's just so pretty >w<!!!

 Don't Put It In Your Pocket... 

No country for old men, I kinda had the premise spoiled by Youtube essays but still watching the movie was massively impactful.

something about Anton is just so scary. I would say in my own mind Anton purely represents cruelty and fate. There is no morality or even reason in his mind. Anton has no real progression or character really. just a death incarnate. its what is around him that forms the story

 

and the guy at the bottom was just this tik tok mukbanger. It's crazy to see since he is visibly suffering complications due to his eating habits. severe acid reflux and fatigue is common in his videos. it was funny at the time but now it just makes me worry about them.

 Tina Fey... 

My biggest crush is Tina fey.... she is just soooo fucking pretty. maturity and strong features are like... GUHH so pretty to me. its a milf thing of course to me.

 

I know I have mommy issues, which of course I've learned to live with its just that... I can't knock cougars mannnnn. mature women are just so damn HAWT

lil weird goth chick, thas it mainly another type of women I love of course due to the fact weird goth chicks were the only ones to talk to me at all. its another type of person I find comfort in. cause goth girls are always so sweet.

 Island girl 

I've always been the one to notice if a guy is a pacific islander, cause they are all husky and strong as fuck.

but I think all the pacific islander women just look like Mexican women... cause I never notice... which of course they are fucking beautiful brown goddesses I just can never tell.

 

I was just looking for something random to draw and came across this. which I think looks so damn beautiful, I do not know or claim to know what the "hula girl" outfit is. I just know it looks like this. And I know its goddamn beautiful. It might be the margaritaville postcards talking but those island girl pinups are so damn hawt.

 Disenchantment!! fan art!! 

This is like my friends fav show so of course I had to tap in. this is a project from Mr.Matt  Simpsons. which is like my fav tv show. AND learning that eric andre has a part I just had to tap in.

 

And I was right cause this show is really cool. and first watching I related with a character alot. that being elfo, he's kind of a nice guy asshole sometimes. he's more of a loser most of the times, as someone with a chip on their shoulder cause of my masculinity and personality I relate to elfo. especially cause of his attempted advancements to Bean.

 More Bunny crap 

My fursona againnnn. he looks more like a twink in this pic which is kinda funny but I look swag in this. I kinda don't like putting my hair up but I always try and find a pretty way to put it up. cause like male pony tails are a walking red flags

 

which I know man buns have their own weird stuff I just don't like my hair to be in the way. cause like my hair goes down to the center of my back so it gets in the way pretty often or gets caught in stuff all the time. 

This other drawing is just a simple little doodle of a pretty girl. I don't know the type of hat but it's swag. I would wear it if It was my style but I would look like a mushroom forest creature if i wore it.

 PAIGE IS THE RAGE 

Goth bitches do backflips when you mention Bettie Paige will be at the function. the great thing I see is using pin ups for the sake of female empowerment. It really is a female centered art nowadays.

 

the pin up style is quite the reserved style in context to other adult forms of modeling so I'm glad it exists. and Bettie Paige has to be one of my fav pin up models. her body is just the perfect hourglass figure and perky set which was the perfect body type for the pin up art form. 

 

I also drew a stupid gay lookin bunny. and a dumb meme of lospollosTv, I only know them from geoguesser stream clips and the dumbass W Faps? image. which is hilarious to use in context of giving high praise to adult content.

 Another Simp Moment.... 

Yeahhhh it's that girl again. it's just something I drew tbh... she's a huge supporter of my work so of course I drew her again. I really like how it came out and how well i represented her features.

 

Mr.fartman... I started rewatching south park. It's what took place for disenchantment to be honest. I dropped myself in at season 7 and I've just been watching from there. and cartman is the most iconic character from south park. Butters is still my fav character of all time ever. he's just such a sweet sweetie. 

 

I mean the other boys are cool it's just that butters is such a me character. He's so sweet and kinda dumb.

 Boys Boys Boys!!! 

GUHHHHH moist critikal. I've chosen him as like my body inspo. He's very well defined and slim. not super super husky. I'm not really trying to be above what I am right now just to change my body fat percentage.

 

but I'm not trying to do anything ridiculous to meet that goal. I don't reckon he is at a unhealthy body fat percentage but I'll stop if I'm overly fatigued or in a Large caloric deficit. 

 

but I still LOVE husky boys zomg. so there he is right next to critikal. just a big strong emo boy :333

 Gezzebelle!!!! 

My fav artist of this year has to be Gezzebelle Gaburgably. I originally found her from incelcore playlists but I think she is FAR ahead of anyone else in that scene. Sonically and lyrically she is just incredible really.

 

Gaburger is a certified BANGER front to back I would say. from other incelcore artists that just mope around I would say Gezzebelle verbalizes her pain in writing so much better than any other artist in the scene.

 

That is not to consider her art direction which is immaculate.

zerm... the other drawing is just a screen cap from an adult film actress. that's it mainly.

 all the children are dead 

speaking of favorite artists... top tier breakcore album would have to be Doll Doll Doll by Venetian Snares. I would call it an audio techno horror movie. to where Chainsaw Dismemberment by mortitian represents brutal slasher movies I would say Doll Doll Doll represents movies like saw and Martyrs.

 

Just unrelenting sterile violence. the cover insinuates a medical theme and Violence twords children, with the title track of the album being "all the children are dead". it really crosses a line to where the violence does not seem comical at all. targeting children just shows the lack of morals represented in this album. I reckon I should pack it up and save it for a full album review. 

Bug Blog 01-28-26

 Back Home? 

So around December my sister said she was moving and I had been living with her for about 2 years now. which is kinda crazy to think about. I thought on it but only had once choice to move back in with my mom.

 

back to a very important house to me. it was after moving out to miles Texas in 2021 that I found myself, the isolation and getting away from the inner city changed me for the better. to be back in that house again is really nice.

 

the area is just full of life. from farm animals to stray cats and deer. I can see it through my old art where I expressed nature and my sexuality. it was a time of massive change and then again with my weight loss this house represents a time of change.

 Speaking of change... 

With the whole dealing with moving and settling in thing I had kinda been slacking on dieting... I am now in a healthier BMI so I increased my calories. being in a massive deficit was just not fun. cravings and being tired all the time was just really tough especially with working out.

 

I am NOT going on the bulk no matter how fun it sounds I do not have the money to double my servings to gain "lean mass" like I said before I'm aiming to build a masculine figure and not like a body builder figure. and yes I see those and two different things pretty much...

 

 YESS YESS I SAW HER 

I finally got to go out with a friend twice this last month. it was just so lovely. she's the sweetest thing I wanna keep in my life no matter what.

I got to hear what she had been doing the years I had not seen her for and Overall it was just SO nice to chat with her. and we also went on a ""date"". it's what I wish it was at least. but just seeing her was so nice. I could talk dumb all day about her but I'm just so excited to think about what we will do in the future.

 GRAPHICS 

Swag fact I did 2 years of graphic design in high school. I love graphic design and getting into that workflow is so fun. and I actually decided to integrate my artwork into a design and became ADDICTED.

 

I'm not the best at drawing backgrounds but designing backgrounds and stuff makes this like almost poster quality I would say. I love it, it adds so much to the quality of my art. sorta like Little big planet type of scrap booking look.

It's been so fun and really refreshed my skills. y'know I've had them this whole time but to get back into that type of work flow is friggin peak!

 Rest in Piss my tik tok 

So after tik tok went under American ownership naturally censorship occurred. I reckon chinese owned tik tok had censorship. it's been pretty integral for both alt left and right.

 

But now there is prominent censorship of Content relating to the corrupt drump administration and 1mm1grat1ion issues. this and More privacy issues is enough for me to just pack it up. it seems as more of a tool of this administration rather than an actual platform of the people.

 

So naturally I deleted my acc and app.

 

 The fuckass ice storm 

There was an ice storm due for the entire weekend of the 22nd. I had known for the whole week but naturally I could not anticipate how bad the storm would actually be considering the last time we got snow was from the last infrastructure crippling storm back in 21.

 

 But I can't really say anything crazy happened. except I just got like 4 days off work and I could not leave the house. But THANK GOD any hours I was scheduled for will be paid by the company. the cabin fever kicked in pretty quick but I had I worked last night and got groceries so we are back to normal. and it feels good to see and feel the sunlight.

 

 Overall 

This month has been FUFIN INCREDIBLE. to be the honest. health kinda stagnated BUT other points of life have gotten better. I feel My diet and the benefits of my weight training and Calesthetics.

 

My new room at the house is way bigger than my old room and I'm just loving it all. I can only hope next month will be as good as the last. Love u all! thank you for reading!!! :333     o 

Through Rain or shine, clouds in the sky, The brightest stars, are in your eyes.

 Night time. something always special to me 

I used to be a MAJOR night owl. A connection I had to silence and watching adult swim. now I'm older and not living in a lively home anymore.

 

something so intimate and peaceful. especially with another person. not particularly in a sexual sense but also in the means of connection.

 

The pose is beautiful, a pretty rotund body and a cute face turning away from the window. using heavy shadows to show the subtle yet revealing kiss of the moonlight. it's beautiful really. I kinda tried Moe anime eyes just to kinda fuck around but I think it came out really pretty. I tried to make it anime style but.. you know fat girls and anime... kinda don't fit the aesthetic.

Studies 01/27/26

 Charles Bargue Studies 

It's not often that I do proper studies but I really need to do more. and this particular study is pretty important to artist. 

 

This is the bargue plates a set of images that help tons in simplification and form and rendering. simplification is massively important when it comes to making form out of complex shapes like human anatomy.

 

I really recommend these studies to newer people. at least sections of bargue plates. like for the study of the head I mostly just drew the face. Even as someone that does not draw realism studying real things and using fine art studying methods are still very important.

 

I know studies are kinda like the veggies on the plate but Just do your freaking studies during your art block at least...      

 I'm working on my NUDE beach body 

I love her so muchhhh!!! she's so chubby and pretty!!!. Her beautiful small and firm breasts highlight her fullness. 

down to her plump belly and wide hips, FUCK I love it so much.

 

I used the tropical look Ironically It's snowing in Texas. Snow in texas I like a one in 3 year event so it was rather special to me to see snow. I got the idea from femme beach tropical. coconut girl is the more applicable word. tying a connection to the tropics to fashion.

 

Outfits are so adorable to. like shorts and cropped tees over bikinis and sheer dresses and flowers. there's alot of crossover with hippie and naturalist culture with accessories that derive from nature or copy from nature. (shell necklaces, waist beads and flowers)

 

 Hibiscus and Cute Swimsuits. 

coconut girl is very vibrant with emphasis on pink yellow and blue. often colors derived from flowers or tropic locations. which is so cute.

 

and of course... I love to see those girls in the sunlight! pretty brown and blonde girls with flowers in their hair in cute small outfits...  DUH who does not love that. especially when they got such cute accessories :3  

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Can Monster Act as an Aphrodisiac?

 Momster 

I Like the whole "Adam and Eve" type of censoring I did there. It's pretty cute and endearing to me. kind of anticipation I would say since the hair could not perfectly stay above the nipples.

 

I gave her A TON of piercings. maybe even more than normal I won't lie. but goddamn she does certainly look like a badass.

I know monster has "monster girls" but not to this NSFW degree but I know the real monster girls look like this. this or hello kitty girls that only drink pipeline punch. this is something I COLORED? which is huge. I did my fav thing and gave her dyed tips? its that the word? idk I love girls with crazy dyed hair.

 

I got a little silly with it and made it into a kinda parody of a full page magazine ad. something about weird studies really had advertisers swearing their product did something and for this I thought monster claiming to be a sex promoting drink would be funny. but actually doing the research brought some things to light to me which was kinda crazy.

from what I read caffeine from coffee I would assume can lessen the risk of ED in men. which vascularity and blood flow is certainly aided with caffeine. and as a daily coffee drinker... I will not comment. BUT ALSO caffeine can also increase female arousal. which y'know we are all winning here so like. drink up yall do it for your sexual health!!     c