Bug Blog 04-01-25

 Mental stability once again.

Back to a more stable life 

We are back at rosa's and I'm loving it. both working with people I love and working my fav hours. Right now I am part of the morning crew. which is my fav shift at rosa's. It's alot slower and the morning crew is so much better to work with. so overall I really like it. also working lunch is alot of fun too since i get to be on line which has to be my fav thing to do. and I'm hired back for more money and I know exactly what I'm doing so its really nice. working during the day and having a better sleep schedule is doing so much good things for me. so I'm really loving alot right now.

Gender Stuff Again :3

Honestly at the Moment I don't really plan on fully fully transitioning. I do hope on using my new name more and more. Lily Clove. She's kinda of a pseudonym at the moment but I wanna use it more. both are natural things I like alot. Lily is a really cute name and i think is a flower related thing which i love flowers and nature shit like that. and clove cause It's a cooking thing. my sister was cooking something and had used clove. and i did think about clove as a sort of cute nonbinary name but then attached lily to it in my mind and created Lily Clove and thought it was really cute. and out of all of the names I've been thinking of the last two months. Lily has to be my fav

 

Health Better Than Worse

i'm Not Smoking anymore :3. It really does not fit well into my schedule. It was alot easier at allsups when i had tons of time to just stand outside and smoke outside. but now working at Rosa's I work with alot of people I would not want to see me smoking. really. I just think while working my overnights i was really unstable and i needed alot of stimulants. and ciggs helped alot with appetite suppressant and mental stability. but now I don't really need them. Not saying I have no cravings tho. ciggs are not even close to matching the body and flavor of a cigarette. But I would say a great step in my overall health. I'm still up on too much of my sugars tho. I'm back to putting sugars in my coffee and unhealthy snacks. I will say being back on line cook is alot more exercise than cashier

Drawing Has Changed For Me After Abandoning Content Creation 

Social media is finally valueless to me. I really only upload here but no more youtube or insta. i thought youtube would help widen the scope of my art or something like that but not really. same thing with instagram. I just have to recognize having more time for my projects and time in between my projects would be the best option. Right now I'm thinking of more things to do with the lily clove pseudonym. it really has reduced the amount of pin ups i want to draw. it was really nice to draw and easy to upload but now I want projects with wider scopes and take longer to make. something fully for myself and not for some algorithm to analyze or whatever

Overall 

I'm doing so much better!!! I really am exited to do the things I really want to do again like drums and more and MORE art!!!! and blogging too of course. and happy happy 900 blog views this month and much love to my followers <3333          

 

 

      

The Little Lamb :3

This is for my new Death Metal EP

Yeah The Religion is seeping in me. but not really doe. I feel like this would be the cover for the hardest black metal cassette tape of all time. I really do love sheeps tho. they are so fufin cute. I gave it a gun :3 and yes you have to guess what the word up top says. i think it looks pretty obvious to me but i wanna know what yall think it says.

It's All You Know, It's All I Lack

Boob artist gets real with biblical imagery

A Picture I had seen of a sheep herding dog covered in blood being comforted by one of the sheep its protecting. but I think the dog represents me well. something that only lives to survive, it's how i've felt my whole life to the point where it seems to be the only thing I know. I don't know how to really care a comfort others. I just know how to make it past this day. compared to my friend who has genuinely showed me alot of love. a feeling that is unique to me. for all the people i live and fight for. it's the most I've felt loved from someone I care about. he knows how to actually care and make other people feel valued so thats why he represents the calm and comforting sheep.

Black Metal Babes are so swag!!!

She invited me over! where's the Black metal she's just naked!!!

The titty Spider tattoo is peak

this has to be one of my fav tattoo designs on one of my girls. The big ol black widow in the middle of her chest down to the webs sorta curving down around her breasts and the web nipple tattoos just draw it all together so well. i am pretty proud of it. and the black metal wojak is something im proud of too. it's really funny to me. I know all black metal band photos are all mysterious and dark but its still a funny parody of black metal merch. orher than that she's really hot

 

Miss Glasses.

She had glasses and er... whatever was below her tits

Me Being A Slut About Nerdy Women Again? No~ 

I would Never. but like right now? Yes!! She's so cute!!! Her rigid black hair complimented by her black tights and black heels she's so hot. she has a nice strong looking body such lovely curves.

 a nice tall strong tree of a woman.

 I really like the background too. its some sort of backroom she's modeling in. could she be ran into? is this a private room? just something about such a beauty in a trashy stairwell just makes it pretty interesting. it's hard to tell from her docile face if she'd fear a peep show or love to be seen like this.     

 

WIZARD!!!

 WITCHCRAFT!!

Make it extra immersive and play witchcraft by king gizzard for full effect. or any power metal will suffice. i used a body builder as ref and it is crazy how much body builder anatomy differs from average anatomy. def something i could study more but to understand it fully would be a good couple of months of work. other than that i think the composition is pretty peak. the line of action is pretty clear going from the hand down to the face flowing down into the open coat. i took notes from occult imagery for the tattoos. but it's hard to think what a wizard would have as a tattoo. it's really cool to me. 

 

She Breasted Boobily

This week Long sickeness is really getting to me

For this last week I've had a pretty consistent sickness upon me. it's left me so very very tired. just one of my tonsils are super inflamed so ive had alot of sinus issues. and alot of coughing. I've already been to the doctor and they did not really find anything so I've just been using shit tons of nyquil to sleep.

so I've felt rather defeated. the same as my drawing subject. she's such a beauty. I love how well she's framed in this portrait situation. not even looking at you. do you wish she was some bubbly playboy girl darting souless looks at you with a pasted on smile? I just have not had the energy to be what I really want to be so this is what it's been the last week. :(