Bug Monthly?

 A Gentleman's Magazine 

I drew this vintage model and just thought she'd be perfect for those old adult mags of the 60s

 

magazines have to be one of my favorite forms of print media where news keeps up with events magazines take a monthly scoop out of culture. some cultures can owe their archived history to magazines.  

 

this was a really fun practice in working with text in gimp. If you did not know gimp is my preferred editing software. I took 2 years of graphic design with photoshop but of course I don't care to pay or crack photoshop. So I just use Gimp.

 

but working with text and other bullshish like kerning and spacing is kinda hard for me since text is not very forgiving at all. this was super fun to make though still.

 

The faint background shapes work alot to fill space and add color to contrast either the text above or catch the eye. I just really like this page.      c 

Droolin at the pool

 It's a floater 

I went back into 2016 for this. Pastel Tumblr goth has to be one of my fav aesthetics I'm not gonna lie. galaxy filters, pink and black,unicorns and cat pics are so fucking cool and work so well with each other.

 

The drawing is so awesome sauce. a tight fit body leading into a cute booty and a sorta irked face is perfect. and the all black pool float is just so goth.

 

The background is what really makes the design. I had just a pretty simple pool background and I put a galaxy filter over it pink purple and stars are just such a cool motif to design around. like the galaxy shoes and galaxy jansport had middle school girls in a choke hold i swear. I hope to do more work like this to make this 2026 into 2016 cc

 

My Sweet Girl...

 My Favorite Sweet Girl 

Such an immaculate feeling to be panting,over stimulated, foggy brained, and teary eyed. or to leave someone else feeling like that. I'd just love to look up at glossy eyes and quivering lips.

 

I love it, her running mascara is so cute the kiss marks and rough messy hair shows loving marks from another woman. of course I took notes from Ayesha Erotica. a lady that lives for pleasure on her own terms. Which I fufin love.

 

I used my fav gif site to rip all the pretty and pink gifs I could. It has all the old school type of gifs that just had incredible almost bad looking gif designs that are so endearing. 

 

Am I ur fav cam girl?

 I got a webcam and a dream  

Doing more graphic design. Idk what has made me go into this phase. but I really love it. I normally use my artwork but My confidence has been so high recently that I decided to make a little edit for myself.

 

I picked the porn site theme cause it's the type of admiration and attention I love but.. I could NEVER do. like I might have a fat rack but I thank god that he did not make me a woman cuz like... id be on OF by now. but hey... I'll always try something once.

 

I do not really care to have an opinion on sex work since like it always is changing but has always been here. there is pornography that's older than America. it's not anything new. there's alot of times where sex work is an act of desperation, and that is why I just can't judge those who choose that line of work.  

 

more more pretty creepy girls!

 Texan Sized Center Fold 

This is a bit of a break in the template cause this is one page a one page centerfold. I should have done something like this earlier to be honest. there's some pages where I had to crop alot of my work.

 

This whole page was from a legal pad and is letter sized so of course there was no work around. So I either had to make it a spread or center fold. and making it a spread would make me need to split it and try and align it when just keeping it as one whole piece would make more sense 

 

I love cowgirls so much and tomboys. Not much a fan of traditionally fem women. "I'm Just A Girl" has been the spawn point of many migraines and learned helplessness. cmon ladies do y'all really want that pay gap closed(joking).

 Russ... :3 

Hehe of course I love Russ cause he is the drummer.and I love big boys too so like. there's alot for me to like.

I really have not been keeping up with gorillaz I just think Jamie's art direction thru out the bands phases is immaculate especially in the plastic beach and self titled days. the music videos and promotional art from those albums are incredible.

 

Zerm... I don't really care for the recent albums much. from how much more music I discovered Gorillaz just seems a bit too... pop. Sorry but other artists have been far more impactful music wise but I cannot ignore Jamie's impact on my art work.

 hehe Chubby Demon... 

Another new OC... It's a big ol husky girl... she's just a chubby demon.I like really don't know why but I LOVEEE girls in pajama pants. something about the soft somewhat form fitting somewhat baggy fit just makes me rabid. I plan to make her just a miss cinnamon sweetness. kinda just like me I would say.

 

I really don't know why it's hard for me to stick with OC's like a long time ago I used to have characters I would draw all the time. maybe I should just make a ton and see who I like drawing the most. I certainly love her and hope to draw her more. especially in nsfw. 

 

I plan to make my demon girls all mature so she kinda has a chubby milf build and it must be tapping into my primal instincts but something about a mature well rounded women is like... crack to me.

 Her...  

Another demon girl OC but I would say she's slimmer and more mature. with that short pixie cut in a pushup bra.... zomg

 

I plan to make her a big big gentle dom. big hoops and sharp acrylics, I'm such a slut for that. but like... I'm just a slut for a lotta things but cougars got my heart in chains. and hopefully in restraints for her one day...

 

I'm off 5 hours of sleep so. please be patient with me.

 Manhunt 

I had taken a request from a friend to draw the main guy from manhunt 2. which is like swag.

 

they loved it, and It got me to make a remix of the manhunt soundtrack. I had made one like 2 years ago and decided I should have made another. and it's hard asf

 

I don't think i have uploaded it anywhere except clips on my instagram so like maybe it will be on an album release soon.. and other stuff is just scraps from around my work. alot of people have been going to the national parks here for some reason.

 CUN7Y 

very sad to announce. I barley discovered SOPHIE. I heard some of her music off tik tok and went into the discography and found one of the greatest dance music sound designers of our generation really. to even conceptualize some of these lead,bass and percussive synthesis is insane.

 

also production is gold tier. compression wise it's hard to think that the master does not have compression at all. the dynamics are insane. especially in pony boy where it uses complete silence to emphasize the percussion it's the same as the synthesis to where I could really talk all day about the production to how clear and dynamic it is. 

 

also Bayonetta cause she is hot as fuck

 This reminds me of the time me and my buddy Keith- 

Ellis is MY LFD2 pick.I love him so much and his stupid accent and dumb stories. and I pondered... what if i changed his gender. I mean my tomboy addiction was at a peak so like making my dream tomboy outta ellis was perfect for me.

 

I tried my best to keep ellis' features in her so I left her rather husky in the face and her nose. I knew I was doing something right when a tik tok comment was calling her ugly. I don't really like gender swaps that ENTIRELY change the character down to what they where. like I totally could have thrown a slim faced button nosed girl in a bullshifters shirt and a hat but... cmon ellis is too strong in his face to just be that if he were to be a girl.  c   
 

   

I think of you. I hope you think of me too.

 Somewhat sleep deprived and In my feelings once again... what a perfect time to type.

First off I want to say I am not entitled to peoples feelings or actions of others. this is only to complain and vent.

 

I've been talking to girls and it's just been interesting. I've been using the apps and have just got like... nothing from it at all. I think my pictures are okay and all and I engage first with women and really give it my all but. it's still been noting at all. and it happens often with dating apps that I just get massively burnt out from them.

 

there is another girl I'm talking to that has just really been the only thing I think about. It's not a burden in my mind only a burden to not have her here physically. I feel so warm close to her. everything blurs and its her and it's okay and safe. it's obsession truly,

 

we had recently met and talked and I only hoped it was forever. so sweet and cute, catching up was incredible. but to hear what she'd been through since we had parted absolutely gutted me. I could only hope safety in her life but to be with her I'd work night and day to keep her stable and safe.

 

Not that I could be the only person that could. I just want to know she's safe stable and happy. It's just all I think about my feelings are so intense for her. I know she cares about me far more than my ex did. just to know those feelings somewhat reciprocate just makes me love her more and more.

 

It just feels like sorta childish and vulnerable to spew my puppy love like this. I know it's far deeper than that but I can't help but feel like the fat greasy nerd I used to be. I always feel like a creep to pester her all day. like I'd seem like some sort of stalker if she were to read this. I'm just scared, scared of my feelings, scared of how much I think of you. 

 

Hoping to see someone again has changed me for the better so much. I only want to be the best for her and nothing less. not to be the annoying fat greaseball that always texts her. It just feels pathetic to have all these feelings.  

 

       

the composition files finally drop

 with special guest fresh off the boat 

To hear the "shocking news" that the people that needed to cover up/downplay the Epstien files. did down play and cover up the files.

I never needed the files. I just knew those associated with Epsiten were horrid people. Especially trump, if it was not his comments on women and younger women its certainly his actions twords womens rights and LGBTQ rights.

zerm... and a Belle Delphine portrait. I know she's a massive creep and all but in retrospect of other NSFW creators and even from NSFW models, she is just weird. I mean she was a very interesting character to follow outside of her modeling which was fun to see when she was popular. She is just a really genuine creator which is swag

 My top 10 films are all the adult short films I accidentally watched on 2012 Youtube. 

experimental adult shows have been on the rise recently and it's reminding me of the short films and creative projects on early youtube. One of the being chainsaw maid.

this fed massively into my zombie obsession when I was younger and rewatching it is an incredible display of sound design. there is no dialog in the film so it is all up to sound cues to set the mood.

it really is an incredible short film and i think it's projects like these that really made youtube unique. where any medium could live it thrived from other sites like newgrounds and other video hosting sites and the film and photography artists of the time having a place to host short films.  

 There's a petition in my titties 

Here is more of my fursona!! as the postal guy. I know I can kinda be clinically insane sometimes but like I'd prolly hoe it up in that leather jacket.I've been building my chest more and more and want big ol pecks so damn bad. so I look like a big hulky boy slut.

 

Crazy how my body goals changed so much once I actually started getting leaner and building muscle. when I wanted to be more fem loosing fat was entirely the goal but to think I could be built like David Hasselhoff or Zyzz it's a damn drug... hehe~ it's kinda for myself but I can't lie. it's for female approval too~   

 More Postal~ hehehe 

I get a pass cause R34 artists will slap tits and hips on anything so like... let me make the postal 1 dude buff as fuck. those thick arms~~~ this is not close to real cause the postal 1 dude is like pretty slim and just pretty average

 

I did not have any other ideas for filling the page so it was kinda just him. and some graffiti tags. I really don't do graffiti anymore to be honest it's more space filler than anything else.

 

 More... postal... 

I started re-watching Azumanga Diaoh and playing postal at work. So why not combine both. I did see the idea from Pintrest but tbh it should have been Chiyo Chan. 

 

But It's still sorta funny for it to be Osaka since she is a sort of social outcast and even a psycho in that one beach house episode. her brain functions in quite interesting ways and it's more often those who's actions are predictable than those who seem to plan their actions 

 

Not that I would reckon Osaka is capable of murder but she still scares me more than postal and cannibal corpse fans. those who consume violent media are often rather peaceful and nice people. except those weird kids that watch gore videos. they are just losers

 Zach hill 

Erm I really don't know when the death grips project will really drop but to hear it confirmed has been the news I've been high on for the last month

 

I'm very glad that Zach will be on the new album. and perhaps his percussive style may be more upfront considering andy not being part of the group anymore. but most of their releases are like something I could never guess. from exmilitary to powers that B. their variety is immaculate so my guess at what their next move could be as good as yours.

 

but if we could get something as raw as exmilitary again I might do like 3 backflips and need to fuck a girl raw to that album.