Bug Blog 07-04-25

 Talking again..... still not dating

I'm Talking to Him Again

This is still a FWB thing and I am gonna treat it like that. I got way too attached. seeing him again really did improve my mood this month. I do feel bad cause I really could have lost him but he is such a sweetie for checking up on me during my radio silence. Treated me better than any other person really has and that's why i feel kinda dumb for pushing him away. 

Drawing Yipee!!!

My Pintrest Got Bombed and banned soooo. I'm just starting from scratch on my art direction. So it's been really fun to experiment with new things. My fav this month has to be the skater girl. I love her outfit and she just looks so cute!! I've decided to go more twords nu metal and mall goth aesthetics. and skate culture too. I'm not drawing too much NSFW stuff anymore TBH. even less than last month. I've just found it more fun to experiment with fashion rather than experiment with poses. Another sick project from this month was the black metal labubu. it was a labubu my coworker bought for me and I made corpse paint for it. It's really cute and has actually held up rather well. considering there's no lacquer on it. I'm always trying and looking for a unique canvas and he was certainly one of my favs. and yes its a he and his name is Barum.    

Fucking Stupid goddamn shit work

I'm Okay with work... Kinda but I am working on an out rn and I'm just waiting for a call. I just know wherever I go from here will be a massive release. I'm looking at a paint store. but anything other than restaurant work would be incredible. I feel stupid for going back but for how fast I wanted out of my last job. going back made the most sense. and my Plumbing career might be cooked. No places I called are Hiring Apprentices. and getting a plumbers license in texas requires time spent working. not just a test or a trade school. so since I can't find an apprenticeship. I have no way to start my career 

Finances....

I am really Proud to say my savings did actually reach my savings goal and even much more. My account is at 4k. The new goal is to just continue to save and eventually put that twords an apartment. And by the end of the year my car will be payed off. so as long as i get an apartment with utilities covered I would only need rent and other bills. without having to consider the main utilities. that's this years full long term goals. right now is just saving more. My Bills are extremely low right now so this is the best time to save alot. other than moving back in with in my mom. which is in consideration. This might be the cheapest way to live right now.  

Zermm Now for the Stupid shit i spent money on....

I just talked about money and saving so I must humble myself and confess..... I bought some sony bluetooth head doots. I originally went to this used game store for a handheld emulator but saw these sony cans for only 50. and for a 2023 model. it was a real steal. my phone is bluetooth only and I have no real closed back headphones so I was gonna get something like that eventually. and with my audiophile ass i would not settle for anything less than sony. and the whole handheld thing.... I bought one also.  

It's the Anbernic RG35XXSP. I used to have a modded PSP and it was actually really fun. But the RG35 is a clamshell case and is wayyy more comfortable and portable. considering everywhere I go I also carry my phone the psp was just too big and crowded both of my front pockets. I just really need something to keep me from using my phone. while I know it still is a distraction. its not my phone at least...