2 Months On Linux!! :33

Program Accessibility is getting better

I'm Still using Ubuntu But I have switched to The XFCE Desktop environment

Customize ability is what I love the most about linux. But The default desktop environment for ubuntu Gnome really does not do enough for me. Plus I had more experience with XFCE considering my first Linux project was mint on XFCE. After the switch I Started using the windows XP icons and theme. I had some trouble with it at the beginning but the end product was so worth. sadly firefox does not match the windows icons perfectly but I made it green soooo... good enough. 

Wine And Steam Proton

I think the biggest worry for most contemplating windows users is cross compatibility. which was mine too. And which I mean having a dual boot PC is a simple solve but My petty hatred twords microsoft will not allow that so everything linux can provide for windows programs is all I'm working with. Discovering Steam Proton Was huge!!. Of course linux support on linux is really good due to the steam deck but other than that straight from the rip not much games support Steam deck.

But to find out Steam has a Wine based program that automatically runs games just like windows was freaking huge actually. And That actually made me think more about actually using wine. One program I really needed was Music Bee. I use the file sort tool To organize my music library. Alot of my Music File management programs were windows only so. I really Needed Wine actually.

What I Lost

Really sad loss but.... I can't play roblox. Wine Triggers the Roblox anti cheat and just does not work. or has very unstable support due to roblox updates. I still hope someday it will be stable but right now. I have no real ideas on what to do. Another is Davinci resolve. While there is a solution to this. Its really convoluted. some of it dealing with running specific Distros and Installing a shit ton of dependencies. and just hoping my Pc Will not bog out from that. But I'm using Kden Live which from the ground up is a linux video editor.

Overall   

I really can't justify switching back to windows for what I've lost considering the state of windows getting worse and worse everyday. My overhead for Cpu and memory have gotten alot better. especially after switching to XFCE frame drops and loading times have increased massively. I Know the bar is in hell when it comes to windows but it really is nice to not have to see ads within the actual OS and menus. I know they aren't ads but windows forcing or preferring for you to use microsoft products and programs has been my biggest headache with Windows. it is just so refreshing to not see that anymore. so yeah its been great!!     

99% Angel

 We are back to video creation?

Booty! Booty!

I really think the face is my fav part of the drawing so it's pretty rare for me to draw a pose like this. I mean butts are swag but it feels kinda dehumanizing to me in a kinda weird way. I know you could say my pin ups in general are dehumanizing..... but I won't say anythin abt that. I really like how it came out tho. I Made a speedpaint of this. 

I'm Kinda back in video creation 

I've been thinking on it for a long time since blogger has really freed my expression compared to being on youtube so I just think making this into audio content rather than just something that's read. I would imagine the video of this is gonna be viewed two fold compared to the blog page. and it was mainly to bring more traffic to my site of course.....

 

Mouth Girl Redraw

 5 Year Timeline here!!!

2020 The Crust Era

This is the earliest version of mouth girl. as an artist that had drawn inspo from artist Trevor Brown. Alot of body horror and Cryptid like things. so drawing a cute girl like this is what made the most sense. My Metal state was the most unstable compared to now. And I found comfort in the band death grips. one of their albums being year of the snitch

An Album with Mouths on it

During this time conceptual ideas were on the forefront of my mind. there is no real sense of real anatomy here. just something human enough. Very strange eyes and horrid facial anatomy. this pose does not help with how strange this character looks. But at the time I embodied so much anger I did not want to make pleasing art. this was not made for the sake of anything but myself. its so ugly and I think my Signature being "Crust" at the time embodies that. From the disturbing nature of this drawing. Crust has no positive connotation, Just filth.

It's when i see this is see how much Hate I had in me

2020 was not a fun time for anyone, I know. From what i had been suffering from compounded over the isolation. And It really shows here

2022 The 8ug3a7er Era

This is the 2nd Redraw. and i can very much see the anatomy studies from this. this is when I had actually put the most time into anatomy studies. while I know its still meant to be disturbing I think this was actually made to look pleasing. especially with the use of more interesting composition and color. At this time I took inspo from artist shintaro kago. a manga artist. While he does draw horror its body horror and its often comical and colorful

A Very Colorful Time 

I was a huge fan of Breakcore at the time and off alotta Vyvance this is possibly what made my art so condensed and colorful. I was so much more mentally healthy at that point also. to the point where art was more an extension of my creativity and not of my emotions. even at that time stepping away from instagram and alot of social media. other drawings of the time were alot of nature and nudity. I think that's just and extension of my sexuality and my feelings of freedom with that. being out in a farmhouse it was really nice out there

Watercolor!   

Since I have not gotten into my crosshatching shading style I think the use of watercolor for the shading really brings out the contrast. and the use of the red circle to frame the character looks really good. and I really like the dark dark blood drawing focus to the hands and mouth of the character. The body horror aspect of this drawing is pretty weak but it makes up for it in the good use of art fundamentals.

2025 The Lily Clove Era

I drew this yesterday! I really wanted to change the pose so I did. i think the side view is not very dynamic and kinda makes the character look weird and I know from another angle it would look better. I would say The color temperature and saturation is the same as the first but I think the line art, shading, and overall quality does not take away from the line work.

A more stable time. or boring.l

I Still have ambition, and Vision but I wish I had the same creative energy I did during 2020-24 it might be the art block talking but I'm just taking steps in finding a more cohesive style and brand. compared to how much original output I had before Its alot less compared to now. That's how bad my art block is right now I'M DOING THE BLOG EQUIVALENT OF A CLIP SHOW!!

Becoming Far more realistic

Looking at it now it looks far more like a shintaro kago drawing than when I was taking notes from his style. which is just from how much more realistic my style is becoming. alot of it is from using More human references and not drawing a ton straight from my mind. and my crosshatching style adds alot more contrast and does not really go into the more cartoonish style I once had.

Moving forward

I know from talking about my artblock and the 'Member berries type of speak about my creative output it seems like I'm really down in the dumps. But I'm not really. I think I'm at the strongest I've ever been. I'm far more versatile in stylizing and drawing. I'm far more comfortable with having larger gaps in between my projects. I have distanced myself alot from a social media oriented production schedule. Which I think is healthier and helps me hone in on my art direction. especially having this blog to do it on has helped me alot.     

 

  

She's Got The Lego Face Card

 Lego Princess leia Makes more sense now....

And Cleveland Jr Got that shit on too.

Something about lil dot eyes can do so much for a character. I've been doing it alot tbh. I think its a bit more charming than really big cartoon eyes but is more anatomically accurate. so Little comma like eyes are doing more for me. and this is an example of when I really like dot eyes. Nothing i can really say else about the anatomy or anything else about the drawing.... Other than that Cleveland Jr got that shit on. 

Average death Grips fan

as a suffering and mourning death grips fan. its really interesting to see the fan base considering things made by the group overall has been sparse. and the whole chronically online fan base just makes alot of things worse. its been like 5 years without an album so its been hard. I really don't care for the live shows considering I could never afford to travel. I just think death grips is gorillaz for people that have used 4chan or have been on bestgore before it got shut down.   

New Altoid Tin!!! Kitty Kitty!!!

 My Fav Skinny Girl Snack.

Shout out to my people with sensory issues too!!

So Cute!! I really love how stubby a cute looking that kitty came out.she is so cute in her bow and lashes. Since the tin is such a small canvas I can't really do much outside of just one subject so i made it kitty :3.

New Ink Looks so much better!!

 it's alot darker and cleaner than the last piece I did with the fountain pen. and the line variability made it look better also. I just really like it and I would imagine this design is gonna hold up very very well. but we won't know that until it's months later  

Blemished Beauty

Body acne! we love to see it!

Strawberry legs or Pimples and general acne it's all natural

This Is mainly how I'm feeling. I have not done much since distancing myself from a partner. it's left me with a gap in my life i want filled again. Where before I was content with my Isolation I now feel genuine loneliness. I really hope it's something I can overcome again. But now here I am. Just a little ball of hormones, Isolated, disheveled, sad.

I'm getting better at the dip pen!! :33

It's really only the ink that makes my work. but I am sill improving alot at the pen. I think I might actually watercolor this soon. since this is a watercolor ink the fountain pen i had been using was not waterproof. I really want to find out if the speedball ink is as stable as the bic pen is with water. I can't imagine it would be weaker than the bic so we should be good.

MY STICKERS ARE HERE!!!

 My Boy Is Here

So Cute. The Monster Puppy!!

I really really like the design honestly. The silhouette of the sticker looks really good and shows the doggy and monster. Since its such a small sticker I reckon it'd be alot easier to see from farther away. and it's just so freaking cute. His little peering puppy eyes. the little stubby puppy snout slightly overlapping the can making good contrast. the tail and the little paws!! Cinema.

Sticker Mule Comes In Clutch!!

I had said before this was kind of a shot in the dark just to have a test print but having them in hand really changes how I see it. I thought some aspects of my drawing could have been lost but even the camera artifacts are visible in the sticker. I'm thinking of other companies to make Eggshell Stickers for me (eggshell stickers crumble when peeled. This is meant for graffiti purposes) I just need stickers to sell. and Sticker Mule has some very very high quality stickers.

Future Ideas?

I reckon the next one is gonna be cat related. or wizard related. surprising coming from me that My first drawing was not either of those. but I am looking a making a more story book like character to draw as dark metal dungeon style darkness. A huge inspo for me recently has been the hobbit cartoon and max and ruby. and dungeon synth of course. I think it's a bit of an antithesis of sanrio which I have not really been a fan of recently. Being such a huge player in pretty valueless consumerism I Don't like what Sanrio represents anymore. it all seems really vapid to me.

Bug Blog 05-01-25

 Back in the groove

Back to being a ravenous Line Cook :3333

Am I a masochist for loving line cook and overall commercial kitchen work so much? Pretty much. It's kept me very in shape tho. I really Don't have joint pain anymore and I'm alot more limber. I still do like line alot just casue it's always moving and since I know what I'm doing it's pretty easy to just blank out and only focus on orders. yes it can very much become majorly stressful and Exhaustive But I'm very respected at work for all my experience and my work ethic so it's really nice to be treated well.

Loads er money

Er tbh. I was making a bit more at allsups but that joint sucked major. and alot of it was due to overtime. but still I'm making my normal contributions to my savings and I am now sitting at 2k. with 2 more months I will have enough to go to trade school for plumbing. from there I will continue my monthly contributions for a deposit for an apartment.

Gender can Wait. I gotta get my bag

I Reckon I'll start Backtracking on the whole transition thing. I mean of course i want fem features and everything. I just don't think from where I am in life right now. I don't really feel the need or have the time to do it. Right Now I'm Starting Fasting which should help. I just think constancy is what is really gonna help so from how my adhd often gives me issues with my appetite Fasting would just be the easiest to do. I already focus alot on what I eat I just think the last piece could be this. I really want to be down to 170-180 which is 10-20 pounds. and working at rosas again has certainly effected what I eat. I get takeout alot more TBH and I'm very ashamed of it. I really need to work on cooking at home or making better takeout choices minimum.

Zermmm.... I use 4Chan Now.....

The Whole 4chan outage thing reminded me of 4chan and I started browsing after It was back up and I actually like it. there's something oddly fun about browsing /b/ or /r9k/ and either seeing a shitpost, porn, or someones genuine last straw type of rant against women. Trust me that's most of it. but other than that I really do like browsing all the other boards cause they are just hobby forums essentially. which I fuckin love. and with pretty lax mods People can actually be toxic as fuck which is really funny. and lack of user friendly GUI It's really rewarding to search for stuff and talk and read threads. and it's alot harder to get stuck in a doom scroll like Instagram. I'm not some sorta chud I just like the crowd better at 4chan it seems everyone on socials is pussyfooting around issues to please someone or some group but they just don't give a fuck on the threads. It's just nice to see.

Overall

 To Be honest nothing much else except work happened this month. but really it is my main focus right now. I'm not saying the trades are my endgame but it is certainly what I'm working twords right now. My Main goal is getting an apartment. and with average rent in my town right now is 750 so I Would need to make a little over 2,500 - 3000 a month. which service work is not gonna provide anything close to that so plumbing is gonna have to be the way.