Have I confused my Empathy for femininity?

 This recently peaked in my mind and I have not dropped it
for a pretty long time now. one thing that developed for me in my teens was my overly empathetic and sensitive personality. 

 

It's not any of the traits I've know a man for so I just assumed it was rather feminine to be as emotional I was. There was no man I knew that would cry over road kill. no man that would consider hunting pretty evil. no man that would show emotions at all.

 

Then it was later that I realized men aren't stronger. I'm no weaker than them mentally. I can just express these things in a more healthy way. or even think about those things more often. If you know a man in your life it's very likely they are disassociating through all of their unprocessed emotional development.

 

especially men from more ethnic backgrounds like Hispanic men or black males. men that often have troubled relationships with their father. I never knew what I was doing. something men are solving on their own. I really do want to be a male again. not the unstable and angry boy I knew in highschool. but a more mature sensitive and stable boy.

 

pretty with his wide shoulders facial hair and body hair :3