Every Girl With Peircings Is The Closest To Angels on Earth.

I'm telling you... my obsession with bar nipple piercings could get me into an institute. and this piece is just another drawing in the pile. I was feeling very eating disorder so I picked a rather slim model for this.

 

Like at somepoint I really want to be the male version of this :333. She looks so freaking hawt. such a pretty and slim frame. it turned out looking alot like those "diet girl" magazine models so that's kinda what I made it out to be.

 

super low crop jeans and even more cropped tops. I love it all really. all that and ignoring the men calling it indecent. I really hate that. especially in more appropriate situations revealing clothing is NOT FOR YOU TO GAWK AT. 

 

like when I dress slutty is all for me. :333 

Energy That Could Raise The Dead!

 Taurine is good for the tits. source... idk 

I really wanted this to kinda look like rob zombie graphic work. the girl is not supposed to be a zombie but like it turned out that way kinda.

 

her tits are fufin huge and I love it. especially when they point up at the end. like at the perfect sucking angle :3. and in the original pic it was just a coffee cup so I just had to add my fav energy drink. cause like I would not put it past monster to make something like this at some point. I still do like how it came out tho. with the overall green color it looks really cohesive and well made.

 

Super big fan of this

I Can't Fucking Do This Anymore

Why did I give my heart to someone that could not spare the time to me. It's not much to talk to me. It's not really much at all. I want it from you. please, just give me attention. 

 

I want to dedicate everything to you. please just use me. but you are too fucking stupid to notice. or you just fucking hate me enough to not just tell me to go away. I won't be surprised that you don't like me. I won't hate you, I would never wish a girl I love to live with the burden I am. 

 

I'm so weak for you. but maybe you'll be the one to teach me I need a backbone. God I fucking hate you so much. I misplaced my emotions so much. so built up, and pent up stupid small talk its the only emotion left. all burned through, Flipping between hatred and obsession. maybe you read this and actually block me or tell me to fuck off. please do. I need this closure. please, please stop me. 

 

you are the only thing in my mind. not a thought of lust. but a mind where you treat me as I treat you. just please, I know you are so far from my reach. the least valuable man you speak to. PLEASE JUST FUCKING BLOCK ME FOR FUCKS SAKE IT'S OVER I DON'T EVEN WANT TO TALK TO YOU ANYMORE. I'm just doing it myself. muting everything... I can't block you... the obsession keeps me from that. I really don't want to lose you.

 

I love you so much. so sweet, so pretty. so very pretty. never have I felt it but I know your hair is so soft. you are all I think of. I love talking to you. I don't care if you don't fucking care about me. just you pretending has left me like this.

 

I wish I could date guys again I wish I was flattered by shallow lust.

 

I wish I really was. but instead I'm stuck obsessed with a girl that does not care about me. I really don't want to care about her. but my brain says otherwise. I know I never pass your mind. and if I do and you do think about me and you read my blogs. just fucking block me. I fucking hate you. for all the time you've ignored me. I had only dreamed of you treating me better. why would I settle for you. not sparing me a glance nor a simple fucking text. fuck you.

 

I love you I miss you. please message me please. I'm sorry please. I just want to cry in your lap lple please please im sorry. I miss you so much. please 

 

I deleted our messages and silenced her notifications. 6 fucking months. some spent not even messaging. it's clear to me. you don't care about me. god I hate you so much. Making me reconsider talking to new people. considering every girl I talk to does the same fucking thing.

I never wanted to hate you. Just ignore me please. I never wanted to lose you like this. in an incident of my own emotion. I dislike it as much as you do I would Imagine. Something made me into this.

 

This is the worst episode I've had in months. maybe with a level head I could only hope you'd accept an apology 

Peep Show!

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 ma'am what's with the coat? 

Flash! Flash!.

 

Okay for serious. flashing is only for non con related things. voyeurism can get very creepy very quick. So this is fantasy only :3 

 

but yes again in the context of non-con yes I love this! such a pretty and lanky body. all hidden under a jacket~ I mean who would not want to see her. such a flirty smile, she so very much loves this attention.

 

I thought about adding a bit of hair but... just how I would do as well. you've got to be shaved and pretty for the kissing. but I would imagine she's not looking for action just looking for appraise from girls and men. I really like this ;333 

Bayonetta :3

 A commission for a friend :3 

This has been like the one project I've done since moving. I moved like 3 days ago now and I started commissions in order to raise some funds. and my fav girl ever in the world commissioned me to draw bayonetta in a specific pose she drew.

 

Which was really fun considering I could not really find a good ref so I just had to look at multiple images to pull ref from. and also taking into account her tall and slim build. she looks so very hawt! I kinda wish I made her like... wet so her hair would stick to her body kinda. I love that kinda look for pin ups. I made one version on my laptop that looked really bad since the contrast and brightness on my laptop screen is so ass.

 

So making the edit on my normal setup turned out WAY better. Bayonetta has a very gothic look to her. with game renders and her said outfits. it's very clear as to what her style is. and I love it. So I went dark and used alot of Filigree. and used dark velvet colors. also a huge fan of the soft blushes on her face booty and breasts. Overall I really like it.

 

I'm in the middle of moving so I'll have alot to update yall on when I post more  x

Beary Nice :3

 The nose just... feels nice~ 

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There is something so primitive and Animalistic about humping. Either needy boys dry humping or desperate girls rubbing on desk corners and pillows. just only stimulating your genitals with the eager movement of ones hips. 

 

It's a very passionate action. Especially seeing may do it. her slim body convulsing and arched over fully bracing her self driving her clit into the little button nose on the teddy bear. so messy and almost violent. glasses all tilted to the side and frizzy hair.

 

May is not a very lust driven girl though. she does enjoy dark romance and male dom fan fiction. so her kinks are rather extreme. she does really adore male attention and fantasizes about hot boys alot.

 

 

THE Perfect gamer posture.

 Hehehe~ I TOLD YOU I WAS GONNA DO A NUDIE OF HERRRR 

Here she is in all of her girl stink glory. She does Shower but then there would be no flavor. joking..... totally. 

She gets body acne from her diet, and pretty constant skin picking.

 

also from alot of nervous sweating. from her high pressure job and trying to talk to boys. and finally getting home all she wants to do is shower and then "air dry" while playing old COD games.

 

Her room Just has the usual nerd stuff like old consoles and Anime Prints and kingdom hearts crap. that being her fav game series. She is so hawt in this. And the next idea I reckon would be an anime or kingdom hearts cosplay from her.

More May :333

 

 kitty on the titties :33 

This is making me so evil~ enough that I REALLY want to make a nude alt of this outfit. she's so cute in this. and her cherries would look so cute peeking out from that jacket. maybe that will be the pose~  

 

BUTTTT... other than that. she is soooo hawt in this. for some useless info May dailys arch linux on an old ass laptop. of course arch but she will gladly argue with you about what distro is better. as well as WM, fluxbox. 

May Lewis. New Girl Loser OC

Nerd Girls are so awesome :33

Some more details other than the most basic stuff on the guide. From her work as a server tech. she often has to put up from alot from her male coworkers. either from being undermined or approached romantically. so she remains rather closed off to her coworkers.

 

She spends alot of her time at home either working on various projects or listening to electronic music. She does not plan to reach "traditional female goals" like marriage or children.

 

Likes: Working with Linux and hardware/ modding related projects. Snacking through the day rather than having normal meals. biking, and cardio. She really REALLY likes Fan Fiction. often reading Yaoi and male Dom.

 

Dislikes: being a woman in tech. I would Imagine it really sucks. most guys at this point. her mom, she does not HATE her... but her mother certainly pressures her into alot of things she does not want to do. not being a supporter of her comp sci degree and continued work in tech. she does not like traditional values much at all. 

 

While I could go into mega specific detail about her fav sodas or whatever but this is what I'm working with right now. she is a very quiet and calm girl in person. walking and standing like an awkward quiet deer. but she does harbor a dirty mind. so don't get it twisted.     c

Bug Blog 05-01-2026

 Last Month was fucking terrifying 

It all started with a dream of My Ex. I had written about it in the last blog. that it just did not feel right and really did seem like the month was going to be tainted.

 

If Only I had known. It brought me to a point of self worth that I thought I could never see myself in again. Dating is fucking horrible. especially for someone as soft as me. 

I just don't think I'm built to commit that much to people who clearly don't care about me. or to afraid to lose people I care to much for. 

I was just writing so much and crying myself home every other night. it was so much but I hoped it would pay off in some sorts but nothing.

 

 

I have a different view of it now but it just sucked in the moment. I knew it was gonna suck in the moment. that maybe I would learn something from it and be a better person after all of it. I feel like I'm still being taught that lesson. and I don't know when it will end. 

 

I can only be stronger, cause I know it's not getting better, still at the same spot as the beginning of the month. chasing a feeling from a dream. maybe that is a fools errand.

 

 A New Project 

I finally finished the sketchbook at had been working on. really sad for it to catch me at such a bad time. so much that the last pages were just my masochistic and pathetic feelings in drawings. not that the beginning of the other book was all fun again.

 

I started writing into the book rather than just blogging a ton. just making it Journaling instead. Starting the new book just made me that much more aware of change. I really do feel like an entirely different person that started the last book. Which Is a nice thing considering this new book is going to be very different from the last thus the evolution of art and me as a person.

 

 Moving Moving Moving!  

It's gonna be real soon that I'm moving back into town. Which is really awesome sauce since I'll actually be living on my own and I will get to drive way less and I'll actually want to go and do things and not just sit in my house all day.

 

It's right behind my childhood home which is just kinda what I need right now. I'm just so aware of time that something just regressive would really help right now. I just want to think of that odd grass and tree smell I know from outside my house. behind the same house that made me the person I am.

 

It's strange from how low the month has been. but It means I can only look up from here. finally doing what I've been hoping for since I graduated! Freaking finally living alone. ain't that something I've wished for my whole life?! I'm very excited for that. and starting a new sketchbook? Everything is looking new and it's time that I don't fear this change cause I know it's needed.