Nerd Girl.
This came out so cute. It really looks like my old sweetie and I had thought of her mid drawing.
Especially her glasses and slim face Her whole outfit is so cute and reminds me of her. especially her skirt and thigh highs.
er I don't think a girl all shy would wear that combo. and then another type of women I love so much. tomboys hehehe~ especially farmer girls. funny how my two types are just the two girl leads in a yuri manga. I might have a constanza complex as to where all of the girls I like and might be lesbian, Or a guy pre transition. trust it's happened to me alots. Not that there is anything wrong with that. (Seinfeld reference actually two Seinfeld references)
But overall. they are both so cute. they have to be my fav drawings so far.
04-23-26
"rejection again. same girl, my fault. I really thought It would actually be something again. Closer than before, She had complained that nobody would ever want to date her. It just seems like she was baiting me into saying something. and I did, another No. She said She was afraid to date men again.
I Can't really blame her. I mean men are fucking terrible. From what I've heard from men and what they really think of women. And then there are men that think not being sexist means they should get the girl as some sort of prize.
I Just want to get the girl for being me. I guess being me just does not work or something. I'm not supposed to be scared but I am, They know it.
I Don't Know what I'm Doing"
"I'm just talking to some reddit girl now. of course in another state. my whole life I've felt like such an outsider. Especially now. Just a rather sensitive and submissive man. Nobody talks to me. Or would even entertain dating me.
It makes me feel like I'm asking for a dominatirix when all I want is a very soft dom woman. Not even nothing to do with sex. I just want a woman that would actually take charge, maybe somebody I could cook for, Someone I'd clean for, someone that would take me out on the date. But that's just asking to much I reckon. Looking for than in a shitty trad town is like looking for the hillbillies in portland.
So Unless I move. I will just be alone. I'm still coping with that and I don't know if I will ever sit safe with that."
04-24-26
"super tired. I agreed on a meetup with her. I don't know what I'm doing to myself. But I know this wont end well. I'm all tired and my dumb brain will find a way to make this hurt.
I've done it over less. I just want it to be a good time with a friend. having fun talking to the reddit girl. of course I am. they talk to people how strippers talk to people at the club.
Telling you everything you want to hear. It's a high that wears off before I can finish reading her messages.
I feels hallow but it's the only time a girl calls me pretty. so naturally I'm addicted. not like cigarettes actually make you happier or something. she does not really fix anything. but for a moment. I can be her pretty bunny. And nothing hurts again."
04-25-26
"yeh. I was right. I opened up to her and she said the right things of course. It was just me vocalizing this past month. It really put everything into perspective. I'll think about it of course. She's very smart and said the right things.
But maybe I'll understand sometime soon
Finally moving back into town by may 15th. So I'll have to focus on that. I'm really excited to finally be on my own. so may is looking to be awesome sauce."
This pic is so awesome sauce as a kid I would have killed for a rage comic tee. It Really Is a lost art at this point. I remember only wanting to read rage comics for some reason. they were more relatable and funny that actual comic strips
04-26-26
"almost sat with it for a month and it sure sucks. I've known that my whole life and I guess It's just bound to repeat cause I reinstalled Hinge :1. I know, I don't learn but just maybe.
It's just random chance at this point. Women give chances to-" This just a emo boy. It's just such a cute pose to me. and of course the hairrrr.... emo boys are srsly making me consider cutting my hair short again :333~~~~
maybe later though.. but I certainly want it shorter than I cut it last time.
"-Some of the worst guys I've known.It's just a lottery. I hate to treat it like that but if i were to make it more personal. I would be a mess. So regardless I'll be who I am forever and I can only hope there will be another girl who will put up with me.
I Know I'm doing the right things. I'm a fucking incredible person. I give women so much space and respect. I understand why they must be so fucking sick of men. I even do the stupid trad male stuff like paying for stuff.
I really don't give a shit anymore why should I be so dependent on people who don't fuckin respect me. from what I've seen at least. Duh not all woman but who am I to care. nothing has boiled to the surface. this is just my pitty little hatred twords how shitty dating is."
04-27-26
