A Very Dirty Blonde.

I Need a naughty hippie girl in my life

Soooo Freaking HAWTTT. The pose in incredible, so confident and seductive. I find confidence and power so fucking hot. of course some of my girls can have. "cute" more submissive and innocent poses.  but those just remind me of Old pinups which are just really weird to me

Women in those are often represented as clumsy and innocent ditsy girls. while of course I've seen women reclaim it it not make it more of a feminist thing. from its roots in very misogynistic history I just have not been a fan of pin ups. but if you like them and feel it can be empowering its not me to tell you its wrong. 

but other than that this girl got some rocking tits. I love puffy nipples. Just a preference for me. but I don't want to make it biased. Areolas can vary so much from woman to woman. I just don't really like it when NSFW artists draw one type of areola. its so much hotter to see all the variety. swag.com 

 

Transition Blog 1/24 - 26

Somewhat of a setback

I did more research into HRT and found resources in texas that could help me start. but right now it is far too expensive to start right now. I don't know if I could start after I get a new job or even not until I'm working in trades. but from what I'm looking it it seems HRT would do what I really want for all of my transition goals. but since I cant really point to when i would actually be able to afford them. And another is how visible it will look to people around me. like my family does not even know I'm gay. then im just growing tits outta nowhere? Honestly praying I don't get a killer rack from it. but other than that im just focused on my diet at the moment. I recently discovered black beans so swag. i still don't have a name! I mean I really have not started to look around but still i woulda rekon i came up with one myself. But I'm still feeling better though. 

Transition Blog Day One.

 1/24/25 - First steps 

I rekon the best thing I could do for this is actually document this since my adhd normally makes it hard to pickup habits and since transitioning is gonna be picking up alot of new habits I rekon this should help. I've only considered it to myself and online stuff. I haven't even told any of my real life friends but I know my close friend had seen't it and he supports me and I know one of my coworkers would support me. but right now I'm just keeping it to myself. but do other people really need to know? should they care? I just wish me wanting to be a certain way was not a political statement of sorts

Since I'm not doing any HRT at the moment All I could do right now is exercise and start doing makeup shit. I already have the hair to style it in a girl way. all the work is gonna have to be external really. not saying that's not effecting me internally. it's certainly changing how i think of myself already. thinking like "yeah I really am a girl, Girl girl girl." or " I'm that bitch. strong woman. single mom strong woman." I don't know what was keeping me from thinking that way. I honestly think it was some sort of deep embarrassment that kept me from fully expressing my self from being fully fem

I just have to settle as being boyfriend but fuck that I WANT TO BE THE GIRLFRIEND!!!. I don't really have much to say. I'm not thinking much I'm very tired. I'm going back to work tonight so I better get some sleep so i can do something tonight.  

Another Girl Drawing but I talk about my gender identity issues.

 Gender I hardly know her.

Another Womannnn!!!! gawd she's so pretty! the shadow work in this just makes her godlike so much. and I'm pretty proud of the fabrics. Pretty hairy? er Hairy and pretty. but anyways my gender dysmorphia has gotten pretty bad recently. Idk what made it so bad recently

It was enough to the point where I was researching HRT and looking at names and buying more makup I'm normally comfortable as nonbinary and even at that point I don't tell anyone about my pronouns. Just being in a red state and all I know this just leaves me open to endless judgement.  but I don't really make a big deal of my identity but I had just thought of so many relationships I wish i had if  i had not been a man. It's really getting to the point where I'm just uncomfortable with doing femme things and I just cant do them at all. but i wanna do it all. so fucking bad.

I just feel the burning judgement of others in the back of my head even as someone fem presenting. I still know im not respected as much as a masc presenting man. or just being treated like they are walking on eggshells and they are all extra nice to me. its fucking condescending .i'm not really wearing mascara. I don't have my hair in a girlish style. I'm just wearing a costume. I could never really wear these girly things. I could never be her. God.. I'm okay I'm not having any thoughts of self harm or anything. I just think the healthiest thing to do is just. commit to my transition. I really don't know what the fuck I'm doing. I will just update you as I continue this. thank you for reading.     

Simmering Up Some Nice Witch Stock

"What did ya think i used to pot for?"

 I've had this idea in my head for a good while since I could have just seen a cauldron as a big hot tub soooo. how about a hawt witch lady in a hot tub. and she looks incredibly hawt. just a cute legs up cute pose showing off the bits in a seductive yet shy way. It was my warmup of the day so I know it could be better but.... I still like it.  

So S-Soft

 Let me bite a chunk outta that ass

Holy shish SHE LOOKS SO FUCKIN SQUISHABLE AHSHFKNBFHB fuck..... she's perfect!! her tummy is just sooo good just such a voluptuous woman. as we all say. there's so much more to love. I just need to snuggle up to a big woman. it would be healing :3 

Under The Hood-ie

I lika da woman a lil creepy

 I love to see these oddly masculine poses for women. This is kinda against all the poses and forms that make a woman attractive. the sort of awkward thrust and the tits barely peeking out from her baggie hoodie. but in some ass backwards way it still makes it hawt. instead of hitting some other submissive pose to show her parts off she shows it all in pure confidence. like a mix of a flashing creeper and a peepshow it ends up looking so attractive. 

She's Got A Lisp But I Don't Mind Her Tits

Thigh Gap? Tooth gap is where its at!!!!

 She's got me with that stare honestly. such a dominant attracted stare. to be the person she's staring down.... you'd be one lucky bastard. wonderful bush and set o' eyes but its all in the face for me. confidence emanates from her she's godlike for that. er but other than that

I've had COVID so posting has been kinda rough so other than making this incredible piece Im prolly just gonna rest after this 

The Composition Project Pages 40-50

Tragedy Strikes!!

These last two weeks I had taken up extra time because of the holidays. so i had been doing 48 hour weeks so yeah. not much drawing time.  

IPod Mods - The Ship Of Theseus

 Hifi gateway drug 

As someone that watched a particular Aussie Man back in 2020. I had gained a large interest in high fidelity audio. and from this. i learned about a really intresting part of the internet. the Ipod modding scene. the Ipod being such a revolutionary piece of  consumer audio history. it's no suprise that there are people that want to keep using it for its build quality sound quality or just for it being an important part of their life. and its something that sucked me in, convincing me to try and mod and modernize an ipod. and.... jesus christ could i never do it again

This is from 2000 and huh?

With the last Ipod classic being released in 2008 It's really really behind.  every model has disk hard drives. and the capacity gets exponentially smaller as they get older. and that's not to say anything about writing and deleting times. I am blessed to only be young enough to know solid state drives cause HOLY MOLY. Yeah the storage media sucks. but at least the charging port is....... the 30 pin connector which is.... older than me. so you can imagine someone won't have a spare 30 pin cable. and with this having 2008 data transfer speeds. But it will be fine to charge the worn out and spicy pillow status battery that is a demand to add to your refurb list. The ipod only feels as good as it looks. but hey what really matters is on the inside

The bit about ipod doom

Okay using the actual stock ipod OS is worth it if you are already invested if you have already temped the forbidden fruit. but for us pirates and audio nerds. we got flacs and weird audio formats. and a need to play doom on a touch wheel. so of course rock box is here and for it being opensource freeware. it is incredible honestly. and is something that is a need for making it proper open source. for it to work with lossless files. songs not on itunes and M3u and unicode M3u files. and themes are fucking sick. and rockbox has minesweeper which is like so much better than solitare......

This needs Usb-c, Bluetooth, 1 tb,5000mah, and better dac, 

Some things are a requirements when modding such an old device. batteries and flash storage are a must. +10 year old lithium batteries can leave an ipod with not even enough energy to keep itself on. making trouble shooting impossible unless you have a 30 pin and even firewire to certain extents. Disk drives are unreliable. especially in a portable device. so the IFlash kits are the choice. another thing that could not allow you to trouble shoot other issues with it. even after that the fact that these are ages old portable consumer electronics. issues will find you. usb-c mods. bigger batteries bluetooth and wireless charging. you rekon this would be a peak audio machine........ right? Everything has been modded except the logic board. and this holds the biggest issue with the ipod.

>Be Me 

>Be Audiophile

Now I don't believe any modder claims that the Ipod is a hifi player. but its pretty obvious apple made the Amp and Dac to be consumer grade. this leads to..... audiophiles. high ohm headphones and a low power amp leads to external amps being a requirement. high sensitivity IEMS could expose hissing and distortion in the amp. something that happened to me. the Dac in certain models has a certain sound signature leads to  endless debates. External  DAC support is iffy. and the capacitor mod. the final frontier. 7 dollars for 2 capacitors you have to solder yourself and drill the mother board to install. and possibly already have the iflash mod installed to have enough space to fit. all of this to remove RF noise. Be Safe out there fellow audiophiles. 

Just buy a dap man......

Unless you want to spend months on modding and making your ipod dependable enough to daily run. just buy a Digital Audio Player. I understand the ipod has a status but..... almost all chi-fi DAPs can do an ipods job with no sweat and even more without needing mods. There are many guides to what Dap to buy so I recommend that.  okk bye bye