Transition Blog Day One.

 1/24/25 - First steps 

I rekon the best thing I could do for this is actually document this since my adhd normally makes it hard to pickup habits and since transitioning is gonna be picking up alot of new habits I rekon this should help. I've only considered it to myself and online stuff. I haven't even told any of my real life friends but I know my close friend had seen't it and he supports me and I know one of my coworkers would support me. but right now I'm just keeping it to myself. but do other people really need to know? should they care? I just wish me wanting to be a certain way was not a political statement of sorts

Since I'm not doing any HRT at the moment All I could do right now is exercise and start doing makeup shit. I already have the hair to style it in a girl way. all the work is gonna have to be external really. not saying that's not effecting me internally. it's certainly changing how i think of myself already. thinking like "yeah I really am a girl, Girl girl girl." or " I'm that bitch. strong woman. single mom strong woman." I don't know what was keeping me from thinking that way. I honestly think it was some sort of deep embarrassment that kept me from fully expressing my self from being fully fem

I just have to settle as being boyfriend but fuck that I WANT TO BE THE GIRLFRIEND!!!. I don't really have much to say. I'm not thinking much I'm very tired. I'm going back to work tonight so I better get some sleep so i can do something tonight.