God damn it I have a Girl Crush Again.....

 And It's Over very minimal pathetic things...

So last night was my last night. and I had to train the new girl on that night. I had seen her before already but spending time with her really fucked me up. Now i don't think i will ever see her again. it kinda really sucks

"Inked and Pierced My Greatest Fear

Speak These Things Into My Ears

Make it Mean and Make it Hurt

I Had It Coming For Being A Flirt"

I think I'm really gonna have to think deeper about my masochism before I end up in an actual abusive relationship but I don't know why I want that type of attention in the first place. I don't know what did it. The way she spoke down to me. Her Tattoos and Piercings and she was taller than me. Looking up into her dark lined eyes through her dark secretary like glasses. I just needed her to grab me by the face and wreck me