Bug Blog 04-01-25

 Mental stability once again.

Back to a more stable life 

We are back at rosa's and I'm loving it. both working with people I love and working my fav hours. Right now I am part of the morning crew. which is my fav shift at rosa's. It's alot slower and the morning crew is so much better to work with. so overall I really like it. also working lunch is alot of fun too since i get to be on line which has to be my fav thing to do. and I'm hired back for more money and I know exactly what I'm doing so its really nice. working during the day and having a better sleep schedule is doing so much good things for me. so I'm really loving alot right now.

Gender Stuff Again :3

Honestly at the Moment I don't really plan on fully fully transitioning. I do hope on using my new name more and more. Lily Clove. She's kinda of a pseudonym at the moment but I wanna use it more. both are natural things I like alot. Lily is a really cute name and i think is a flower related thing which i love flowers and nature shit like that. and clove cause It's a cooking thing. my sister was cooking something and had used clove. and i did think about clove as a sort of cute nonbinary name but then attached lily to it in my mind and created Lily Clove and thought it was really cute. and out of all of the names I've been thinking of the last two months. Lily has to be my fav

 

Health Better Than Worse

i'm Not Smoking anymore :3. It really does not fit well into my schedule. It was alot easier at allsups when i had tons of time to just stand outside and smoke outside. but now working at Rosa's I work with alot of people I would not want to see me smoking. really. I just think while working my overnights i was really unstable and i needed alot of stimulants. and ciggs helped alot with appetite suppressant and mental stability. but now I don't really need them. Not saying I have no cravings tho. ciggs are not even close to matching the body and flavor of a cigarette. But I would say a great step in my overall health. I'm still up on too much of my sugars tho. I'm back to putting sugars in my coffee and unhealthy snacks. I will say being back on line cook is alot more exercise than cashier

Drawing Has Changed For Me After Abandoning Content Creation 

Social media is finally valueless to me. I really only upload here but no more youtube or insta. i thought youtube would help widen the scope of my art or something like that but not really. same thing with instagram. I just have to recognize having more time for my projects and time in between my projects would be the best option. Right now I'm thinking of more things to do with the lily clove pseudonym. it really has reduced the amount of pin ups i want to draw. it was really nice to draw and easy to upload but now I want projects with wider scopes and take longer to make. something fully for myself and not for some algorithm to analyze or whatever

Overall 

I'm doing so much better!!! I really am exited to do the things I really want to do again like drums and more and MORE art!!!! and blogging too of course. and happy happy 900 blog views this month and much love to my followers <3333