Body Of Honey

 Erm Time to be pathetic again :33  

so I'm talking to this person and yeahhh... she's been at the forefront of my mind for a while now. like i said.. pretty pathetic but i can't help but be emotional because I have not felt a connection like this in a while. not something that felt like an obligation or something not something that is sexually fulfilling just... idk pure attraction.

 

something almost addictive and pure like sweet honey. something about her makes me speak embarrassing things but I can't help but say it. but after being through one of the most loveless relationships that connection and attraction even in terms of friendship has drawn me out from my dark hopeless isolation. 

 

This is something I would not tell her directly really. the weight of my depressive episode and disparity for human connection would be too much. I'm still just processing everything though. I reckon I've made my disparity pretty clear to her I had drawn for her and showered her in compliments. it was way too early to do all that.

 

I'm just scared of doing something that could scare her away or forever regress me to a creep or something. But talking to her somehow that fear drains away and I somehow say what I'm really thinking. if you can somehow guess this is you and you are reading this...

 

I don't mean to use this as some malicious intent. and please do not think you are at fault for any of my feelings or thoughts. I'm sorry.I'm coming off of a really bad relationship in which I am still processing and changing.