Bug Blog 12-31-25

 Body! 

GAWDDD DAMNNNDUNKJBN. This is me right now at 165. I got no clue as to what my body fat percentage is but... I'm ALOT leaner now. I really think weight training has been the key.

 

And diet also of course. I've been pretty strict and understanding that it is the MOST important aspect of my weight loss it just made it so much easier. I mean I guess alot of people have not noticed cuz like... I wear such baggy clothes. Like all of my clothes are like too big so I don't really wear anything form fitting. But maybe I will now actually. 

 

But honestly... this angle is VERY flattering. from the bottom looking up plus good lighting plus from the side to make my tits bigger... it's all pretty fake.

 not to be me me me but...  

I've had such a huge confidence boost from this. Like I'm talking to girls again type of confidence. but alot of it is for myself to be real. It's been more often in my life that I hide away in big shirts and baggy clothes. Now I want to wear more form fitting things.

 

I mean of course genetically I could build the fuck out of a masculine figure and that's the goal. Not a really bulky figure or for competitive weight training but to become leaner. and aid in weight loss.

 WE ARE OFFICIALLY HALFWAY DONE 

A little more than halfway done with the composition sketchbook. This is like huge to me. this kinda is my main focus and I've had incredible progress on this project within just this month.

 

and if you can tell from the new blog background. I've been doing a ton more graphic design work. And I really love it. I first started with the fake ads for my blog then made more for my background and one of my recent drawings.

 

That being the tomboy version of Ellis from L4D2. Ellis was like one of my very first boy crushes. I can't help but love a country boy. so damn handsome too. and I love country girls too I love tomboys so damn much. so I just thought about making him into a tomboy cause id wanna fuck him or her I guess or Both maybe. and at the same time? fuck yeah. 

 A little more of the same 

work has been the same old same old. I'm so used to such an eventful workplace that making music and drawing for like... more than half of my shift has just made work. kinda boring,

 

 I'm trying to talk to girls again... the apps have not really been that fun but I still try and talk to who I can. I really do have my sights set on one particular girl. It hurts like alot but attention from her and my affection for her is making it all worth it. I know there's other girls but like... It's just her I think about. to see those pretty eyes in frames and long black hair flow. I try my best to not be obsessive but I just can't help it.

 

My biggest fear has been looking like a creep to women but
like... I just want to be romantic so fucking bad I wanna spoil a girl so bad and treat her like my everything cook and clean and comfort her. It's been like sort of taxing almost.    

 To wrap it up :3 

I'm finally building a better body after like months of attempts. getting leaner and muscular giving me the confidence to talk to girls :3. and my confidence overall.

 

my current project has been productive. and cool. overall. good month of improvement :3