Bug Blog 09-01-25

A New Start

I ended Up going through with my plans.. Kinda I was a day late that's just i was being a pussy. the the day after certainly gave me a wake up call. I don't remember why but I did get into a bad argument with my manager and it ended with her saying she did not wanna deal with me and she'd start cutting my hours If I kept it up

I have zero respect for managers that use that power to control their employees. and the days after that did not help me at all. even with my year and a half of experience it was a massive struggle. plus with short staffing or lack of experience in other areas like cold prep and hot prep food was hard to keep in stock

I suffered the more I knew and stressed more and more cause of other sections making problems for me AND with a rather un-experienced and temperamental manager

 I did not care enough to continue so I didn't.

I Quit

The day after was gonna be waking up at 4am in order to open. and all my problems with rosa's were compounding so much in my head to the point where I just did not want to come in. So I didn't, I did let my manager know the moment i left my last shift. I really felt the weight drop from me. it felt incredible. I really did not know what I was gonna do next but I did have the savings to keep me up with bills for the next month.

I really did care about everyone there. I really did. with that weight dropping I did feel the grief of leaving everyone with a huge gap in the team. either it be emotionally or through companionship I knew everyone was gonna miss me for something. 

there's was only like 3 people I'm in contact with and more who just never followed up with me after leaving. It was more for the sake of me than anything. I really can't do anything for anyone anymore. I need to care for myself more. 

 I'm an older fucking loser now.

 Yipee My Birthday happened. I did not really do much the day of and normally I really don't. mostly cause I work on those days. I did do something with my family at cheddars

I have adult birthday parties now. so now it's just a reason to go to a restaurant all together. which that's fine by me. I used to hate birthday parties as a kid cause at all really is about you. everyone is all focused on you. it was too much for me as a kid

I got to go see all my nephews which just that was worth it. they are all so cute and we ended up getting a huge chocolate chip sundae thing for them. I got about 150 from my mom which was super super cool 

 Getting older is a main reason I wanted to leave food service cause if you have the choice to leave. fucking do it. I would say more than a quarter of food service workers are doing it cause they have no choice. either it be cause of experience or criminal records.

It seriously does not help you with it being a full time job that does not make a home and car payment affordable. it is an actual waste of time. You could actually make the same amount money or more being a receptionist or something.

Unemployment.

That was pretty fun. I knew I did have the means to pay for my bills but to spend it all would be very very bad. so I did spend alot of it looking for jobs which was not fun. but I spent most of it like It was summer break all over again. just being a degenerate. not in like the gooner way but like a ton more gaming and zero sleeping schedule. 

and gawd damn I felt it. I am not young enough to play around like that with my sleep so I was sickly and tired all the time which was super fun.... I was looking all over for job options. I got call backs from retirement communities pawn shops all of em. but nothing really.

I Finally Got That 9-5

I got a boring computer job... I work in checking in and checking out car rentals in my towns small Airport. I am super thankful for my new manager that understood my struggle as a food service working looking for work outside of food service.

and I reckon she saw how nice i was or something like that. but this new job is a real breeze like seriously, I spent like most of my shift playing games on my game boy. it felt so odd to use down time for personal things like drawing or being on my phone.

I even bought a laptop recently to use at work cause of it. I still have to give it some more time but this seems far more  sustainable than other jobs I have had so I am very very happy to start this job.

Right Right Lets get down to the brass tacks...

Right So with the base pay of 14 dollars an hour. and with weekly pay we are looking at 560 gross and 488 with Taxes. meaning we got about 2,000 a month. This is also excluding commission from work. which could add up to 300-500 You got 20% percent of that for savings 50% for needs and 30% for what else ya would ever want. It's never responsible nor sustainable to spend more than 50 percent of your income on bills and groceries. sure ya might have to live with yer mom a bit but that's the economy for ya right now. essentially economic problems we have not seen since the great depression. 

My Creative Projects

 I had alot of time for creative ventures this month. and actually started networking with a lot of local things like art boutiques and other local artists. and this month I actually made a more "appropriate" site to host my work. I'm eventually gonna get business cards made cause I really do wanna work with more local things.

There really is a pretty open ALT scene here in my smaller town and I really want to do work with them like that. especially organizations here in town. I mean all artists would wish to cash in on their talents at some point soo. I reckon it could be pretty soon

the Initial investment is looking like something in the 400-500 range So being employed is really helping me with that and it should not be long because of that.

Overall

I'm super exited to start the month. I had just ended some of the most exhausting months of my life and I'm starting a brand new high paying low stress job. and I have never been this motivated to create and just enjoy life. I might take a bit of a break for now for the sake of work.