Bug Blog 06-03-25

 Change and Solitude 

Solitude Has Become Loneliness

I have been distancing myself from a person I had been seeing for a while now. It was a More Of a very Intimate friendship but it still had an effect on me. I never knew how much i depended on them until I had just told myself not to engage with them. and for the first time in a while I had actually felt Lonely. I Tried dating apps all this month but nothing. It Feels really pathetic to admit my disparity but it's true. and that disparity showed in my mental stability. I Was not really doing good at all.

Big Block This Month

Work and my mental health this month has been pretty tough on How Much I draw. But I still think it's a healthy amount Since I'm comparing myself to my content output for instagram and youtube. One of my fav Projects this month has to be either my Puppy stickers or My Kitty Altoid tin. which is why I say my creative output has not really diminished. I've just tried my best to cope with it since I don't really want to make my relationship with art really toxic. Just that and I know I don't have all of the energy I would want to put twords art.

Music!!! Again!!!

After switching to Linux my Daw of choice had been limited to MilkyTracker. While it was my first ever DAW I used it to make breakcore and not really what I make now. I really left it alone until I Finally installed Wine and Used it to run Renoise. And after using one of the default Piano instruments. I Finally took the bass and drums out of the breakcore I normally make and just make solo piano instumentals. maybe to represent the anger I let go as I age. but that is what Im working with in my music journey at the time. 

Fun With Linux!!!!

I've Made some real big steps with Linux With me finally installing Wine and some other programs with wine that i had been missing out on. another being switching to the XFCE window environment. Which I really like compared to Gnome which is the default on Ubuntu. I know I'm Kinda splitting hairs but XFCE runs better too. I think I really am fully comfortable with linux. I know as someone that just uses basic programs I am not using linux to its full capacity. I'm really doing all i need to do now. especially since I finally got roblox to work. I know. My age is about to start with a 2 and I'm still playing roblox? Yeah :333.         

Overall 

It's been a nice month. I'm Closer to those around me after leaving a relationship and becoming more comfortable with both Music and drawing. It had to get better twords the end of the month. If i had wrote this a week or two earlier I would have sounded worse. But I'm Just recovering.